It's that time of year again, when year 12 results come out. As usual there's a lot of talk of of defining moments. Of deciding your fate. Of doors opening or slamming in your face, depending on the outcome.
Earlier this year in a school assembly, I was inspired to out myself. Here I am, passionate (verging on obsessive) Computer Science teacher, researcher, and writer. Absolutely where I want to be, doing what I love, and feeling as though I can make a difference. There is nowhere I would rather be.
But my first preference was medicine. So was my second. I didn't get in. I failed.
Oh, I didn't fail my VCE, but I failed to get the score I needed to do medicine.
A better thing could not have happened to me. I drifted into a science degree intending, in a vague and fairly uninspired way, to study Genetics. I took Computer Science as a fill in subject because I had always liked machines that go "Bing!"
By third year I was studying nothing but Computer Science. I was never going to do honours. Certainly never going to do a PhD, and no way would I ever become a lecturer. All of these things inevitably came to pass. Quite quickly, really.
I suck at predicting my future.
I've always been faintly astounded by people who have 5 year plans and the like. My planning mostly consists of noticing an open door and flinging myself through it.
Occasionally I have to dynamite the door to make sure it's open.
The point is that I thought I knew what I wanted, but not getting it turned out to be the best thing that could possibly have happened. It took a while, but now I am right where I want to be, doing something I love with a slightly obsessive passion (I may be lying about the slightly part). I've taken a strange and winding path to get here, but every step of that road helped to give me skills and attributes I would not have had any other way. I doubt I would be this happy, or this useful if I hadn't failed to get into medicine.
Tonight my year 12s graduate at our school's presentation night. (I know, I don't teach year 12, but they are still MY YEAR 12s. Hush.) It will be a minor miracle if I don't cry, because every single one of them has performed amazing feats just to get where they are.
So if you're waiting on your final school results, remember this: there is nothing defining about these numbers. You are so much more than a number could ever express. Whatever happens, your future is in your hands, and you have extraordinary potential. Go get 'em, Tiger.
Lindy McIver is an Australian writer and teacher. She blogs at Exploring Life, Parenting and Social Justice.