For the past year I've been trying to defend myself and abilities. Despite a glowing annual review in 2011, my 2012 was extremely awful. In my annual review my manager even acknowledged that part of the staff provided feedback was not true and to ignore it yet everything else was taken at face value. I failed to get a payrise as a result and now I feel work also somewhat doubt my abilities. Basically I feel like I've had two people over the course of a year do their best to trash my career and I'm devastated.
I have never given any attitude and tried to provide solutions where possible. I have always done as I was asked and to the best of my ability. In fact management said just before my holidays that they 'cannot afford to lose me'. I produce some of the most highly talked about/praised work in the company. I have been acting the best I can and as professionally as possible to have these people destroy my confidence, career and happiness. Basically these people did so much to undermine and disempower me that I could no longer fulfil my role and they even threatened to leave the company if I wasn't removed.
The outcome of finally having the bullying recognised is that I'm being removed off the dedicated client account and back into the main pool of staff who work across multiple clients constantly. Since there were multiple people actively working against me and even though the client loves me and my work, the business chose to remove me for 'protection' as it was the easiest solution.
On Monday I'm faced with returning to work with most of the company (130+ people) having been informed in my absence whilst on leave that I'm no longer working on this account. I feel great shame that these people might think that the fault is mine and I'll be going into work tomorrow so I can move my desk without people seeing me do it - I'll probably be in tears. Most people know how much I absolutely love this client and to most they identify this client as being 'mine' as I've worked on it since the beginning and have developed it to the great heights it is today.
There's going to be questions and I don't know what to say them?
I want to be truthful as possible, in the right way as possible.
I'm extremely angry and upset that these people got away with bullying and yet I feel I can't just go around saying so outright because I'll get into trouble, even thought I'd love too.
Should I just say 'a change is as good as a holiday' and leave it at that? What if they keep probing for more? Note: I'm a bad liar. My facial emotions might give part of it away.
I'd like to know from any lawyers or HR people what I can actually say without getting into trouble. The Ally McBeal in me would love to say 'I could no longer perform my role and was removed from the account for my protection' but would that land me in strife?
Even if I did say something as per above, surely I couldn't get into trouble for bullying myself because such a statement is fact.
So, so unfair. I've lost so much and I don't even feel like I can say something about it which is awful. Evil has won.
Edited by Luxe, 11 August 2012 - 02:13 PM.