I have a few thing for you.
These two sayings:
"After death, there is always rebirth" and a quote that I have treasured for a long time.
"If the Angel deigns to come it will because you have convinced her, not by tears but by your humble resolve to be always beginning; to be a beginner."
I see you (or someone) sitting a table looking out a window, you are contemplating life an in front of you is a diary. I feel you have needed to go some of this hard ship to break free from cycles in your life and maybe pave out your independence and self esteem.
Try to think of this as a new beginning not a continuum to something dreadful.
Edited by Mung bean, 03 December 2012 - 06:46 PM.