Posted 19 December 2012 - 08:50 PM
I'm not sure if this is the right place to put this and I almost feel silly writing it but I need to know if I am dreaming it up or if there is something behind how I feel.
I have a certain love, a pull, a magnetic attraction to living in the UK and scotland. I love the people, the places, the history, the weather, the people. Everything about it. I want to be there.
Here's some background. I have english born parents and come from a stuffy english family, my husband is scottish and his parents were born in scotland. We all live in Australia and are all happy here and no one is ever going back. My husband and I were born in Australia.
But for me, I travelled there as a teenager at 18 with a friend ( I was deperate to go then!) and felt while I was there that a higher being was with me, watching over me, guiding me.
I can't stand australian weather. It is far too hot for me. I absolutely loved england. I am facinated with all of its history and how people in england lived through time. My husband has business roots here and there is no way we could ever leave Australia. He does not know how I feel. So why does it plaque my thoughts ALL the time to live in england. I don't feel Australian.
It's silly because it is like I am not really living here a full life here. I am waiting for something I can't have... it's so silly.
Why do I have this pull to a place I can never be is what I am asking.. was I there in a past life.. what is it??? I don't think I am romantising. It is more than that.
Please don't shoot me down in a blazing row of EB flames.. I just want some real answers to a genuine query.