It's so hard to talk about. I'm wondering whether in a year whether it'll be me posting something like this as my dear partner struggles with PTSD coupled with severe depression and anxiety. Every day I wonder whether today will just be too much for her as she sinks further into herself and believes that we'll all just be better off without her. She's been an inpatient, and is on a cocktail of medication, is under the care of a good psych and sees a psychologist. But of course, they're on leave until the 10th of Jan or so.
I just feel so helpless. I just want my beautiful partner back with the sparkle in her eyes. And then I worry she'll never come back. I worry I'll say the wrong thing at the wrong time, so I end up saying little at all.
Is there anywhere or anyone that can help me? I feel so selfish even asking as it's her that's going through hell.
Ah, I don't even know what I'm asking really.
OP, I'm sorry you lost your cousin. And to all the PP'ers who've lost those near and dear - I'm sorry for your losses too. Depression sucks. It's not fair and it's a thief for taking those who never deserved to feel the way they did when they took their lives.