Aawww thanks everyone
TashaG, sounds similar to me! First baby early, jaundice, ended back up in nicu with very little support (pfft, NO support) all sorts of mental health issues including PND
It was all going to be different with no 2 -tried for ages, but bubba got so thin and my mental health was so fragile, we stopped and went tot bottle - heartbroken
This time, as this is our last bubba, i was determined to enjoy this babytime -not worry about anything, just enjoy. Feed as long or as short as i wanted to, not a single pressure either way (as long as we ignore ILs and parents LOL) and it is simply working!
Somedays it is all bottle, other days all boobie (with bottle filler-uppers) whatever works..... And i'm loving every moment of it !!
My baby prefers ME and is happy to quickly suck down a bottle, but always prefers to bf if given a choice
Thanks again everyone! Only here do people understand my excitement