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#1 kittn

Posted 11 November 2015 - 08:24 PM

Hi all :)

I'm 6w2d (probably) and as this is the fourth time in 11 months I've been pregnant, I'm having a bit of trouble keeping it together.
Blighted ovum after a subchorionic bleed, then a miscarriage at 6 weeks, then chemical pregnancy,... and now here I am, got a very emphatic BFP a fortnight ago and by my calculations I'm due 5 July.
This is hopefully my first (and likely only) child. I turn 40 next month.

I keep getting cramping - like all the time, low-level, not actually painful but it's there on and off every day. Every time I go to the loo I hold my breath, expecting to see blood. I had the teeniest bit of brown mucusy discharge last week and nearly had a heart attack.


ETA: Ugh, hit enter as I was editing the title and posted too early.

On the upside, this is the longest I've gone without something going sort of sideways.
I'm almost wishing for MS to make this whole thing feel more believable.
Feeling a bit nuts right now. :huh:

Edited by kittn, 11 November 2015 - 08:43 PM.


#2 Nutty nut

Posted 11 November 2015 - 08:35 PM

Good luck!

#3 Milano

Posted 11 November 2015 - 08:42 PM

You poor thing! Wishing you lots of luck and hope this is the one.

#4 FeelingcLucky

Posted 11 November 2015 - 09:07 PM

Hang in there kittn, with your history I actually think you are doing extremely well keeping things together!

My first pregnancy I had mild cramps and light spotting right through until 2nd trimester.

Low level cramping is fairly normal at the beginning of pregnancy as everything is stretching/growing in there.

I have just found out I am pregnant with #2 and already am again getting cramps - looks like we will both be having July babies :)

I know the feeling of checking every time you go to the toilet :(

Sending you strength xx

#5 ~river song~

Posted 11 November 2015 - 10:04 PM

Hi kittn
This is also my 4th pregnancy in 11 months! I've been diagnosed with an automimnune condition with high NK cells so the furthest I've got in my past 5 pregnancies is 8 weeks.
I'm exactly the same every toilet trip I hold my breath in anticipation of seeing blood. Every cramp? Every twinge. It's exhausting. I think with recurrent miscarriage it's an unfortunate part of the deal.
I'm just trying to keep my mind busy as much as I can and hope like anything (honestly after so many losses I've lost the will to pray or have faith) that finally this one comes together and sticks
PM me if you want to chat to another recurrent miscarriage survivor. Hopefully we are both in it for the long haul this time

#6 6lilhillbillies

Posted 11 November 2015 - 10:18 PM

I feel your pain. During one pregnancy (after 2 losses) I had some toilet paper that had a pattern (flowers maybe?) with a slight pink colour.

I had several mini heartattacks when I looked at the loo paper after a wipe, before it occurred to me to get plain white paper.


I also had cramping every single time. I would feel a trickle down below and run to the loo, convinced it was all over.

Sticky vibes :)

#7 c.sanders

Posted 11 November 2015 - 11:18 PM

Hi op.  I'm not pregnant in your DIG but you came up in recent topics. I hope you don't mind me replying.. In this case it could be implantation bleeding that you are having. Take care

#8 blueroses

Posted 12 November 2015 - 05:39 AM

Hi... This is the third time this year for me. According to the doctors we've just been unlucky. Really hoping both of us make it this time. This is also the furthest I've gotten without anything going wrong... 5w 6d. Fx all is well.

#9 Jody27

Posted 12 November 2015 - 08:01 AM

I'm feeling like a bit of a basket case too. It's my 4th pregnancy in 9 months. 1 loss at 10 wks and 2 at about 4.5 wks.

I'm about 6+5 today. Last week I had a bit of spotting (as soon as I saw it I thought that's it it's all over) and my OB let me come in early for my 1st appt. Saw a sac but no hb. Went in again on Tuesday this week & saw a hb though baby measured a few days small. He wants me in again next week - he said so I can have some reassurance - which is lovely but now  I'm worried there is something wrong.

On the upside this is the sickest I've felt so hopefully that is a good sign.

Fx for all of us

#10 kittn

Posted 12 November 2015 - 06:45 PM

Thanks for the reassurance everyone.  :)
I have an appointment with my GP on Monday, and then my obgyn on the 26th, which seems like a lifetime away now.
I deliberately put off making the appointments until I'd gone longer than 6 weeks, and now it's going to be aaaaages until I can see a heartbeat - or not - sigh! :doh:

Thinking positive (and boring, uneventful) thoughts for us all.

#11 Freestyle Mamma

Posted 13 November 2015 - 06:33 PM

Hi Kittn. ;-)

I have 6 angels in heaven and 2 beautiful, healthy babies earthside (both easy and strong pregnancies for my 2 here on earth).  Losses range from 7 weeks to 14 weeks.

It's so normal to feel worried.  I actually feel very calm this pregnancy....I'm not sure why. It's like I have just surrendered to the craziness of it all.  Apparently my MC's are because I have extremely low egg reserves and what is left won't be the best quality- well, that's what everyone assumes (I'm only 34 by the way with AMH levels of less than 1- they told me I'd never have a 2nd baby naturally and even IVF was a long shot....I fell pregnant with my 2nd healthy boy that month and this one again all natural TAKE THAT DOC! ;-) ).  

All you can do if you are stressed is take one day at a time.  Whenever I find myself getting in to a negative, scared spiral, I remind myself that worrying doesn't help anyway, take some deep breaths, remind myself of what great care I take of my body and my growing baby and give it up to God (insert your higher power of choice :pray: ).  That helps sometimes.

Anyway, good luck Doll, I'm praying for continued healthy pregnancy for you. xx

#12 kittn

Posted 14 November 2015 - 10:14 AM

Had a spot of blood last night - not even a teaspoonful - and spent the next four hours talking myself down off a ledge (in my head).
All seems well this morning, although it's difficult to tell the difference between the "normal" cramps and twinges I've been having, and the "this is the start of a miscarriage" cramps and twinges. I'm taking it pretty easy but I know that what will be, will be. There's no point worrying. I'll tell my GP about it on Monday and unless something else goes on between now and then she'll probably send me off for a scan and quantitative HCG.

It's weird though, this is the third time now that there's been bleeding of some sort at 6.5 weeks. It's like there's some transition at that point in gestation (placenta starting to take over?) that's a bit unstable.

#13 Beyonce PadThai

Posted 14 November 2015 - 04:44 PM

So I'm officially joining the basket case club.  I had a tiny bit of light pink spotting on Thursday evening, when I was doing a pee test for the midwives at the hospital, ironically.  
No spotting at all since, and have still had very clear pg symptoms, but just in case I've brought another 3 pack of FRERs so I can keep seeing the line until my scan in 2 weeks!

I've done a FRER just now - the test line is really, really dark. But the control line is more faint. So now I'm worried about what that means. Does anyone know if it means anything???

Hope everyone else is going ok.

#14 ~river song~

Posted 14 November 2015 - 05:11 PM

The control line being lighter than the test line is a great sign! Try not to worry to much. If worries though ask for your hcg to be tested over a few days

#15 Beyonce PadThai

Posted 14 November 2015 - 06:46 PM

View Post~river song~, on 14 November 2015 - 05:11 PM, said:

The control line being lighter than the test line is a great sign! Try not to worry to much. If worries though ask for your hcg to be tested over a few days

Thanks for the reassurance. I also went on a googling spree so feeling much more reassured now. I do need to find time to get in for a blood test though, which will have to be next week sometime.

Edit: somehow typed 'look' instead of 'blood'!

Edited by Beyonce PadThai, 14 November 2015 - 08:12 PM.


#16 c.sanders

Posted 14 November 2015 - 07:25 PM

Is it worth just getting a blood test to see if your hcg  is going up?
I think implantation bleeding happens at this stage hence you may have seen it every time.

I have 2 sons but I also I lost 2 babies. One at 6 weeks and one at 12 weeks. It is heartbreaking but the way I think of it is that I am their mum and they are my babies no matter how short the time was, they were here, they changed our lives and I'll always love them.  And hopefully one day maybe I will get to meet them and hold them finally.

#17 Beyonce PadThai

Posted 14 November 2015 - 08:18 PM

View Postc.sanders, on 14 November 2015 - 07:25 PM, said:

Is it worth just getting a blood test to see if your hcg  is going up?
I think implantation bleeding happens at this stage hence you may have seen it every time.

I have 2 sons but I also I lost 2 babies. One at 6 weeks and one at 12 weeks. It is heartbreaking but the way I think of it is that I am their mum and they are my babies no matter how short the time was, they were here, they changed our lives and I'll always love them.  And hopefully one day maybe I will get to meet them and hold them finally.

I haven't actually had a blood test yet. Through a bit of a comedy of errors everything has happened out of order for me with this pregnancy.
But if I see good numbers when I get the blood test next week, that will be enough to make me comfortable and I won't feel like I need another. The dating scan would be the following week anyway.

I'm sorry for your losses, and I love the way you describe the meaning of the short time they were here.

#18 Mrmumof3

Posted 15 November 2015 - 06:58 PM

Fingers crossed all goes well for you lovey :)

#19 kittn

Posted 16 November 2015 - 04:56 PM

So. GP sent me off for a scan and I was able to get in this afternoon.

Good news: HEARTBEAT!!!! No problems evident with the implantation, no bleeding, good amount of fluid around it, yada yada. It measured 6 weeks exactly, not the nearly 7 I was expecting, but meh. This happens.

Bad news: I apparently have a bicornuate uterus, or possibly septated, she couldn't tell for sure.
Now, I'm pretty p*ssed off about this, because when I had my first pregnancy/blighted ovum late last year, I specifically asked the technician during the first scan to look for bicornuate uterus, because it runs in the family, and she ruled it out. How can something that was so obvious today - it was the first thing she asked me - be missed when they were deliberately looking for it last year?!  My thinking around TTC would have been very different had I known.

I'm feeling a bit numb, on the one hand yay, there's a baby and it has a heartbeat, but on the other hand... will there be room for it to grow and reach full term? Will it even get to 12 weeks? Septated uterus is associated with a 90% miscarriage rate, ugh!

I've had one question answered and about a dozen more created.... :(

#20 Beyonce PadThai

Posted 16 November 2015 - 05:42 PM

Kittn great news about the heartbeat! But I'm sorry you now have more questions and worries. I'll admit I don't know anything about a bicornuate or separated uterus, but it sounds worrying and incredibly frustrating that it wasn't picked up before now. Is there anything that can be done to increase your chances of bub sticking and reaching full term?
Hope all turns out well. hugs.

#21 ~river song~

Posted 16 November 2015 - 05:57 PM

View Postkittn, on 16 November 2015 - 04:56 PM, said:

So. GP sent me off for a scan and I was able to get in this afternoon.

Good news: HEARTBEAT!!!! No problems evident with the implantation, no bleeding, good amount of fluid around it, yada yada. It measured 6 weeks exactly, not the nearly 7 I was expecting, but meh. This happens.

Bad news: I apparently have a bicornuate uterus, or possibly septated, she couldn't tell for sure.
Now, I'm pretty p*ssed off about this, because when I had my first pregnancy/blighted ovum late last year, I specifically asked the technician during the first scan to look for bicornuate uterus, because it runs in the family, and she ruled it out. How can something that was so obvious today - it was the first thing she asked me - be missed when they were deliberately looking for it last year?!  My thinking around TTC would have been very different had I known.

I'm feeling a bit numb, on the one hand yay, there's a baby and it has a heartbeat, but on the other hand... will there be room for it to grow and reach full term? Will it even get to 12 weeks? Septated uterus is associated with a 90% miscarriage rate, ugh!

I've had one question answered and about a dozen more created.... :(

Are you having a follow up with your doctor? From what I know it's certainly not a case of miscarriage always happening, the fact you've seen a heartbeat already is a great sign. It may just mean you need extra monitoring and from what I've read position of baby may be awkward so I guess a c/s could be more likely.
Try not to stress yet, wait to see what your doctor says :)

#22 kittn

Posted 16 November 2015 - 06:44 PM

Yes, I have to wait an age until next Thursday when I see my ob, so I'll no doubt have even more questions.

The ultrasound tech didn't seem too worried at all, very matter of fact about it and didn't give the impression that it was particularly bad, but given that she missed it the first time (same technician) I'm not overflowing with confidence.

Maybe she's leaving the bad news for the specialist to put into the radiology report.  :dry:


I need to stop reading Dr Google. He has terrible bedside manner.

#23 ~river song~

Posted 16 November 2015 - 07:03 PM

Yeah dr Google has everyone dying from a splinter. Best to stay away.

So one fun fact I just remembered about this baby. It's a Bachie Baby...conceived the night of the Bachelorette Finale few weeks ago LOL! I think so much love in the air plus ovulation was quite the combo hahaha



#24 Beyonce PadThai

Posted 16 November 2015 - 07:14 PM

LOL Bachie Baby, love it!

#25 kittn

Posted 16 November 2015 - 08:23 PM

Ha! That's awesome.
This time round (and this has never happened to me before) my ovaries were screaming at me to jump my husband like now, RIGHT NOW. DO NOT WASTE TIME WITH TV, LADY.  
Talk about biological imperative. I felt like a salmon swimming upstream.


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