I had to put my faithful friend, of 19years, to sleep today.
Muffy was starting to go downhil, december 2010, when she broke her back leg in 3 places, she had a steel rod inserted, it took a few months for the rod to be removed, however there was one bone that still hadn't healed, so april 2011, she had the rod removed, and a steel plate was put to help heal the bone that hadnt healed.
I was taking Muffy to the vet every fortnight for checkups. On wednesday 4th may, i noticed Muffy breathing heavy, like wheezing, I ended up taking her to the vet on the friday. The vet noticed her breathing and her heart sounded a bit muffled. The took her to the major clinic for x-rays.
On saturday i recieved a phonecall, one i didnt want to hear. The x-ray, showed a mass on one of her lungs, they couldnt determine what it was, so decided on doing an ultrasound. The ultrasound couldnt determine what it was, but it wasnt fluid on the lung, which could have been drained.
The vet said that the mass could be a number of things, absyss, cyst, collapsed lung, or tumor. The only way for the vet to find out, was to do surgery, which could have been risky, as they would have to open her chest cavity, the chances of her survival was low. Even is she did pull through the surgery, then there would be weeks/months of recovery.
The vet had booked Muffy in for the surgery on monday 9th May, i had a hospital appointment that day (7months pregnant), i really didnt want to be there. My mum called me to say that the vet had postponed her operation, and Muffy was comming home that night on antibiotics, and another pill to open up her lung bronichles (spelling), and that they would do the surgery on tuesday 17th May.
We had an appointment with the vet last thursday 12th May, the vet was happy how muffy was going, we discussed the surgery, and i thought it would be best not to go through with it, just to make her comfortable, and hope for the best, and let her live her life gracefully. Everything was going well, with her blood results too.
Sunday night 15th May, i noticed Muffy breathing badly again, you could see her struggling, Paul (DH) was with a friend for a few days, i ended up telling him Monday how badly Muffy was going. He came home straight away.
Monday 16th May Mum, Paul and I, discussed about what to do with Muffy, I didnt want to put her to sleep, yet I didnt want her to suffer. You could see her struggling her to breathe at times. I looked at her gums and they weren't the nice pinky colour, but a very pale white colour, I knew it wasnt a good sign. Yet her appetitte was good, i was always comming to a near empty bowl.
Muffy and I spent most of the afternoon of monday on my bed, there were times when her breathing was quiet, and i wondered if she had passed, but she was still with us. every 2 hours i was getting up to check on Muffy, I just couldnt sleep. All i could think of was my best friend of 19 years is leaving me, and i dont want that to happen.
I thought of an idea during the night, i put the vapouriser in her room, and hoped that it might help her breathe better, sadly it didnt work.
Tuesday 17th May, i had to make the hardest decision in my life, made an appointment with the vet at 5.50pm. I spent the afternoon again with Muffy on my bed.
Mum, Paul, DD and myself took Muffy to the vet, I let her sit in the front seat, we usually put her in the back of the wagon, but i thought for her last journey, she should be with us all, and not in the back.
The vet noticed her breathing had deterioated since he saw her last, he offered the operation, but we both thought she wouldnt pull through.
I knew i couldnt be with her when they put her to sleep, so i took a towel with us, with all our scent on it, so she could remember us. I didnt want her lying on a sterile table. The vet did ask if i wanted to be with her, but i just dont think i could of. We all said our long goodbyes, which was very sad, i couldnt stop crying.
Sadly at 6pm 17-05-2011, died peacefully, with DD by her side.
She was such a good cat, I found her when she was a few days old, just outside my bedroom window, she was such a good friend, and i feel privledged to have her pick me. She brought me so much joy into my life, but now she has gone
20-12-1991 - 17-05-2011
Always in our hearts
Here is one of my favourite pictures of Muffy, taken a few years ago
Here is a picture of Muffy with DD 23 February 2011
One of Muffy's last photos, taken 17th May 2011