AF is here again, I should be pregnant It's not fair. It's like a slap in the face each month. I've put on so much weight due to emotional eating, my stomach is getting bigger for the wrong reason. I just don't understand why it's been so hard this time.
I had a follow up blood test today to check cardiolipin antibodies. After 4 losses in a row, I'm not sure if I can try again but why when I see a baby my heart aches so. Why did my beautiful 7 year old boy tell me I should have another baby because they are so cute and they look beautiful in my arms. Why does my 9 year old keep telling me she would like a sister? I haven't told them about my losses.
I'm so confused and scared about this blood test. Not because I'm scared of the results but scared because the results will mean it's crunch time to make a decision whether to try again or not. I just don't know, I want to but my heart has taken such a beating
Edited by loopey33, 12 May 2009 - 06:28 PM.