I apologise for the late reply...I have been rather quiet everywhere of late, with things not going too well after ET on 4/12. I do appreciate the support and interest in here though.
I had the EPU on 2/12 (very painful), with an exceptional result of 10 mature eggs from 10 follicles. That night they went through the attempted fertilisation in the Lab; and under the advice of the embryologist we opted to trial 5 by 'natural' selection fertilisation, and 5 by ICSI method. The rationale being that if none of the 'natural' group fertilised, then this might tell us a bit about why we've been having probs for over a year...
I received a phone call the next day, and that was confirmed. The 5 which were left to do their thing as nature intended, did nothing. Even with the scientist's selection of the best 'looking' sperm (shape, form, motility etc), none of them got through any of the 5 eggs. So this does tell us something.
On the very positive up-side of all of this, the artificially fertilised eggs were all viable and busily dividing into very healthy little embryos! So we got 5 out of 5 at that point - and apparently despite normal prediction being a 50% drop off, we had 100% viable embryos at that time.
The embryologist also suggested that the fact that we conceived naturally with my DD 3+ yrs ago was an absolute fluke!! As it appears the sperm are just not capable of breaking through the egg's outer layer - either because of my eggs not releasing the right hormones or because the outer pellucidum is just simply too tough. (So don't mess with me, I have tough eggs!) Secretly I also think my DH is pleased that his boys aren't to blame!
The ET went well, we had 2 embys put on board (out of the 4 remaining - 1 didn't meke it overnight), and although I was 'tricked' into feeling rather pregnant by the Crinone goop, I started to bleed very heavily 10 days post ET. We also found out after speaking to the FS that the last 2 didn't even make it to the freezer as there were too many nuclei per cell, so they would have miscarried had they been the 2 chosen. Who knows if the 2 that did go in weren't the same.
So I had a BFN blood test result on Wed last week - 6 days earlier than anticipated. So I can't help feeling a little 'ripped off' in terms of eggs. I mean, we had 10 great eggs, and now, just 2 weeks later we have none! I know that the first cycle has been more diagnostic for us, as we now have an answer as to why we can't conceive without assistance. But, geeez, you start with 10, and then have none!!
So I am also having a month off - what with Xmas shutdown of the clinic, and FS recommendation to allow AF to come naturally one month. Then I will be having EPU #2 around the end of Jan '10. at least we know what to expect this time, and we will opt for ICSI on ALL the eggs.
We are managing ok. I have some teary moments, and also felt fabulous after biting the head off an old 'friend' who so 'wisely' said to me ON THE DAY OF LOSS... wait for it.... " Well at least you have one, it's not like anyone died". Can you believe it??!! I tore shreds off this person, and said, amongst other things, well actually two did die. Idiot.
Thanks for the space to rant!
Hope you are all well,
hugs and baby dust to us all.
And Getintomybelly - good luck as you embark on your journey... would love to chat.
Edited by ruby09, 19 December 2009 - 04:03 PM.