I'm so sorry you've had to go through all of this. I went through it all last April. At my 19 week u/s, they found my DD had stopped growing at 15 weeks, with the fluid levels very low. Another u/s at 21 weeks confirmed that she had hardly grown, the fluid levels were so low they couldn't get a measurement. I was advised to terminate. I was induced at 21.4 weeks and gave birth to Gabrielle.
Terminating my pg went against all my morals, religion, way of thinking. I had so many problems with dealing with my guilt. The first thing I said when Gabby was born was 'I'm sorry'. It's a very normal thing to feel.
I would definitely do as Ellie has suggested and contact SANDS or if you are in NSW contact SIDS. I had a couple of counselling sessions with SIDS and they were absolutely fantastic. It really helps to talk about it.
Also check out the thread that is in this forum for ppl who have suffered Miscarriage/Stillbirth/Neonatal loss. All the women on here are fantastic and willing to lend an ear if it's all getting too much for you.
I have no magic words. If I did I would use them on myself. Just know your feelings are normal. They won't go away, but they will lessen in time. hugs to you. Be kind to yourself.Cass