I want to thank everyone so much for all the thoughtful and supportive replies to my original post. I didnt feel emotionally up to posting again until now, but I want to let you know that I've read and re-read each comment since and they gave me the strength to keep going a bit longer.
The good news is after reading the link Alik posted on thrush I realised that those were exactly my symptoms and I had all the precursers (emergency c-section, antiobiotics, cracked nipples). After several days on daktarin the stabbing/stinging pain in my breast was gone. I'm only dispapointed and confused that neither my GP, LC or ABA councellours suggested it!
I still have nipple pain but its no where near what it was (maybe 4/10 instead of 9/10 on pain threshold).
To answer some PP's questions:
- I limit garlic/onion because it gives my bub bad wind. I was limiting caffine on advice from a friend but have since started drinking coffee/pespi max again to no ill effects
- I was advised by the ABA and other professionals that routine feeding was innappropriate for breastfed babies and (I felt like being told) that they would starve if I tried.
In the last few weeks I have been stretching out her feeds (and sometimes feeding early) to get her close to a 4 hour schedule. You have no idea how much this has helped me! I feel so much more in control knowing there is an approximate 1 hour window she will feed, instead of any cry = stick in the boob. It has also allowed me to have a glass of wine when I want to (sanity saver!)
- I tried nipple sheilds while in hospital and unfortunately they didnt help at all.
- Feeding in public is still hard but I have sussed out all the good parent rooms at the shops now! And I think most of my friends/family have seen my boobs now so oh well.
- I've built up a good stash of frozen breast milk now. I'm a bit stingy at using it (dont want to waste my liquid gold!) but knowing that I have a large amount in there and ready if I need a break takes a bit of pressure off my mind.
I still really dislike breastfeeding and still dream about not having to do it anymore, but it is a lot more managable than it was. It has gone from taking it one feed at a time to taking it a few days at a time.
It is especially hard when I keep getting blocked ducts and recurring mastitis (and all the associated pain/hassle with that), those are the days I get so close to giving up. Honestly the only reason I dont is that you need to feed through blocked ducts and mastitis and by the time I've recovered its not so bad again.
I've managed to make it to 8 weeks and I'm proud of myself for that. My next goal is to make it to 10 weeks and I'll re-assess from there.
Thanks again everyone.
Edited by jesscar1, 09 June 2011 - 12:17 AM.