I don't want this but I really feel like I have no choice.
I could quite happily continue on with the pregnancy for another few weeks if they would let me but its not safe to keep bub inside anymore.
Got heaps of questions to ask before they break my waters tomorrow but I'm fairly sure I will be going along with the whole thing anyway. Although there is a small part of me that might change its mind and just go home. But I would only get lectured on the risks and then have to go back on Monday anyway. Getting baby out sooner rather than later is safest now.
I'm scared of everything going wrong and being pushed into more medical methods and then having them not work or bub get distressed and ending up with a c/s and a general and then waking up and having them give me a baby... I will be a wreak if its a boy and not being awake and aware when its born just to help take in that info... I really expect it to be a girl.
But all that said and done, I have given birth before at an earlier gestation than 38 weeks and the start of the labour WAS my waters breaking so I have those odds in my favour. Also most of DD's labour was at the hospital so having it started in hospital wont be a huge deal as I know I can labour there and not need drugs. I just hope they all leave me alone to get on with it (I will request this and I will be making my own time limits as much as I can anyway).
I'm disappointed to be in this position. Half of me feels forced and half of me sees then need for this to happen.
DD's pregnancy, labour and birth were wonderful. Having a second child has been completely opposite, all we have had are problems once conception took place. I just hope the problems are limited to the pregnancy and that tomorrow goes the way I hope it does.
I did find out that all the vomiting and runs I have had is part and parcel of the OC so that just makes me think it is probably getting a bit worse considering how I was on Monday. My feet are itchy again too and my belly (it was confined to my arms for a few days there) so that also makes me think it is possibly getting worse again which just reinforces in everyone's mind it time for bub to come out.
Fingers are still crossed that a miracle happens and bub picks tonight to be born or I turn up tomorrow morning already in labour or something. It could happen Few bitey BH's and heaps of pressure but I did walk around the shops pretty much all day with Mum and DD (who was a right PITA almost ALL day).
Oh well, better go and finalise packing my bag and DD's (sleepover with Mum and Dad tomorrow night) and pop everything in the car. The less I have to think about in the morning the better as far as I'm concerned.
Will be interesting to see how some of the family react when they find out we kept the induction date from them, but that is a story for another time.
Next time I sign on I will be a mum to two