[kmaharaj]

Hello beautiful ladies

rubylou congratulations my darling. I am so so so happy to hear this. It's amazing how you caught late. It was meant to be. I get the feeling this will be your sticky bean. I have prayed to my little angel to look out for your bub. It makes me think that perhaps BDing everyday during the 6 day window is not a good thing as the sperm needs to build up.

Wishing2011 your note touched a nerve. It's been 6 months for me and I still cry. Had many such moments today but I scold myself now and just tell myself to be strong. Be kind to yourself hun. You will get there. Go and see your gyno. Ask him/her what their plan is for you when you next get pregnant. I felt so much better after seeing my new obstetrician. He at least has a plan for me.

AFM, I am on CD 12 and no sign of peaking fertility (i am using the clearblue fertility monitor which should show me a 6 day fertile window). http://www.clearblueeasy.com/clearblue-eas...ity-monitor.php. It's showing low fertility at the moment. I wonder if the HyCoSy scan has something to do with it :-( I hope we catch soon too. I miss being pregnant. Heck I even miss morning sickness. All of you girls with the BFP's please send us lots of baby dust.

Hoping that I get through Wednesday ok. I realise stress is not a good thing when TTC, especially as knowing my luck i will be O'ng on that day.

lots of love to you all
k.

[Clare L]

I want to be pregnant again.. I still have moments where I'll start to cry. It's not fair we have all had to go through this...

Wishing2011 - no, it's not fair, but you will get there. Crying is normal, please be gentle with yourself while you work through all of this.

Hoping that I get through Wednesday ok. I realise stress is not a good thing when TTC, especially as knowing my luck i will be O'ng on that day.

lots of love to you all
k.

kmaharaj - will be thinking of you and sending you lots of love,

Clare
xxx

[Kazz33]

Woo hoo Rubylou, congrats! I have everything crossed for you that this will be a sticky bub.

Thanks Clare, time has gone so fast! Still dont know if i have ovulated but we're trying anyway.

Aww Wishing, sorry to hear the witch found you. I had a good feeling for you Let's hope next month is better. At least your cycle went straight back to normal though yeah?

AFM - We had our 1st Wedding Anniversary yesterday. Lovely meal out last night, followed by some BDing . Still hoping that i will fall straight away but i really don't know. Had a cry last night, my SIL is due 10days after i would have been & she posted scan pics on FB . She has every right to be happy though & share her pics, just made me cry. It's funny, i havent cried in awhile & i have been talking about it fine, but then something like that crops up & im a mess. This sucks .



This post has been edited by Kazz33: 17/04/2012, 08:37 AM

[kmaharaj]

Kazz33 congratulations on your first wedding anniversary. It's our 8th wedding anniversary today. I also understand about your SIL situation. Its the same as me, DH's sister in law was due 6 weeks before me and DH's sister is due 6 weeks after me. DH's sister in law has a 6 wk old daughter and DH's sister will give birth next month. I am happy for them. Already love my niece to bits..but it's a painful reminder and you just keep wondering what you did wrong and why you were chosen to walk this hard path Hang in there hun. Positive energy, positive thoughts - as much as you can.

AFM - looks like the hycosy scan has affected my cycle. I should be showing higher signs of fertility but the CB fertility monitor and the forelife OPK is showing no signs of ovulation or peaking fertility. Boy does that add to the stress and the hurts in my heart. Been crying all morning from the stress of it all. Who cries on their wedding anniversary!!

Much love to you all. Please keep my little boy in your prayers tomorrow. I hope he is being well looked after wherever he is.
xo
K.

[Wishing2011]

kmaharaj Sorry if I hit a nerve... it is hard though isnt it... We will get there though.. Did they say much when you had the HyCoSy? What day did you have it? Im not sure if it affected me I think it was a slightly longer cycle but I do remember the nurse and doctor permorming the HyCoSy telling me that I was going to O in the next 24 hours and even told me which side it was going to come from We didnt get anything that month though.. Took another 4 months after that! Just keep going at it.. HyCoSy's help a lot of people conceive. It may have helped me I'm not sure. ? Good luck this month Thinking of your little boy..

Kazz Happy Anniversary!! thanks for the message.. so you know what its like having a SIL due around same time as you hey.. sucks doesnt it.. of course we are happy for them and totally fine most of the time but then we have our moments that remind us of our loss. It is totally normal for you to feel that way. Hope you are feeling a bit better now

Clare L thank you

Feeling better today. I have my moments. I'm generally a happy person but I do come on here to vent a little and it is so good to be able to talk to others that have been through a similar thing (not that I wish it on any of you) but it makes me feel supported and not so alone in this.

[kmaharaj]

Hi Wishing2011 it's ok love. We are all in the same boat or have been in the same boat. I had mine on day 8. She told me that I had polycystic ovaries because she could see a lot of follicles developing but nothing showing up on my OPK's. Yes she told me that lots of women get preggars after a HyCoSy and that some even go there requesting one. Well first I have to ovulate to have a chance :-(

I usually ovulate between day 13 - 16. Today is day 13 and not a sign of any LH surge etc. Getting very upset about it actually. Was planning to do lots of bding with hubby this week after the hycosy. Sorry if TMI.

He just had flowers sent to work for our anniversary but i just don't feel so good.

Hey you know i have been looking at inter country adoption too. Well i got a call from the AG's dept, all the countries i was looking at adopting from have suspending inter country adoptions because of concerns about child trafficking. There is just nothing they can do to help us. And adoption from China takes over 5 years, for them to even open up the file. It's so easy for people to say why don't you adopt, or it's ok if you can't have one, you can adopt. They basically told me that they can't help me. If only it were that easy and if only I was Angelina Jolie!!

[kmaharaj]

btw, I only have polycystic ovaries, not pcos. I know I got worried when she said that but it's different. It just meant that lots of folicles were developing. Hoping that i do ovulate this month....so much anxiety. xox

[rubylou77]

Hello everyone,

Today has not been the most fabulous... I have had some spotting I had a HCG done yesterday (at 3w 5d) and it was 71. I am heading back to the doctors in the morning for another blood test which I will get the results of on Thursday. I don't know what to think right now.... Super hard with DP away. Wait and see I guess.


Take care everyone xo

[Kazz33]

Stay positive Rubylou, it's about all you can do. I dont have any other words of wisdom but I have everything crossed for you.

Congrats on your wedding anniversary too Kmaharaj! Hope you had a lovely day. Also thinking of you today xo. I don't think we did anything wrong, i have never thought like that & never blamed myself. I just think well it wasnt meant to be, something wasnt right & my body has taken control & done what it needed to do.

Hi Wishing, yep it sucks alrite. I just pray that i am pregnant again before then so hopefully it wont be as bad when she has bubs. I'm glad you're feeling better

Also what is HyCoSy? How is everyone else going? Waiting? BDing? BFPs?

Me? Well i'm feeling better than i was yesterday. Didnt sleep well last night or the night before, took forever to get to sleep. Which is what i was like in the few days before i got my BFP. So tired but could not get to sleep. My temp is about the same too. Although i havent done that regularly enough to get any sort of pattern. Anyway trying not to think too much into it, what will be will be. Would be due for AF tomorrow but dr reckons another 2 weeks, so we'll see what happens. Work is hellish atm. They have just installed new software & it takes forever to do anything! It is driving us all insane & we are so far behind. Could also be why im not sleeping well.

Happy Hump Day ladies!

[Clare L]

kmaharaj - that sucks re adoption. I understand the child's safety must be paramount, but when there are loving families wanting to help....

rubylou77 - stay strong sweetie. Sending you lots of sticky vibes.

Kazz33 - FX for you, and I hope you feel better

AFM - got blood test results last night, and ended up so frustrated at my GP. Luckily, everything came back normal apart from thyroid function - which we'd already identified as being suboptimal for pregnancy - and when I was pregnant she was going to prescribe me something to help. Now her attitude is 'you're not pregnant, so there's no point treating it' - um, how about being proactive and getting it to the right level before I get pregnant?! I walked out of there feeling completely let down... now this morning she's phoned and asked me to come in for more tests and she's referring me to the Women's.

So I've decided to stick to what I know - keep fit and healthy, and (this may be a bit woo-woo for some people but it's what I believe in) keep my energy in the right place with meditation, visualisation etc. Looking at my chart, I think I O'd yesterday, which is normal for me, so at least that's back on track!

Clare
xxx