[Loulla]

List update!


Fairey

Lou87

Marylou

Loulla - 25th July

Lala - 16th August

Dizzy-Anne - 16th April

Jlove - 21st August

Mojo

Pincushion

[MaryLou88MaryLou]

Hello Ladies,

Sorry that I have been quiet over the last few days.

I have had a horrible day yesterday! I woke up in the morning (my DH was out for a run) and I went to the bathroom to discover that I was having spotting (dark in colour). This obviously freaked me out so I tried calling my husband just to discover that his phone was in our bedroom. So I had a shower and burst out in tears pretty much coming to terms with loosing another baby. I couldn't believe how much it actually hurt this second time even I had tried to keep myself distant to the little bub inside me.

As soon as my DH arrived we jumped in the car and went straight to the emergency department at the Royal North Shore Hospital. It took around an 1 - 1 1/2 to be seen by a nurse who tried to take blood which was a bit of a disaster and she had to poke me 3 times to get just enough blood out of me. After that I was seen by a doctor who did a physical examination (sooo uncomfortable) and she told me that it looked like my cervix was closed which is apparently a good sign but she couldn't give me any hopes till they had done an US. Around 3 hours after that the doctor came over and told us that my HCG was around 62,000 which was normal for 6-7 weeks pregnant.

From there a few hours later they tried to put an IV in me to give me fluid. Unfortunatley that took around 30 minutes and again 2 goes and a bit of tears from my side. An hour later I was then wheeled into US. I was soooo scared......The lady did an external US first. She was a very lovely lady but she was pretty quiet at first as she was clearly concentrating and then out of a sudden she said....here can you see the movement there, that is your babies heartbeat. Lets have a closer look with an internal US and measure your baby and make sure that there is not a secondary pregnancy which could be an ectopic which could be causing the bleeding. I could not believe that I had just seen my babies heart beat and just couldn't stop crying because I was so relieved. She then did the internal US measured the baby and it measured perfectly to 6w5d which I was yesterday and a heartbeat of 140 beats per minute.

They then wrote a report and send us home. We were exhausted after the emotional and physical stress and 7 hours hospital and I went straight to sleep.

And now I just got a phone call from my GP as he had received the fax from the hospital and he wants to see me and give me an Anti D injection due to my O negative blood group so we don't risk that my body attacks the baby if the baby has a positive blood group and it was a little blood from the baby. So I am off to the doctors again at 12.

PHHHEEWWW....that was Sunday I hope I didn't bore you ladies but I thought I would let you know what is going on. Due to my US yesterday I will not have another one tomorrow but instead will book one in for 9.5 weeks as I don't think I can last waiting till week 12.

I am going to tell my boss tomorrow as I think I just need the support and I can't deal with this hiding game any longer...it is driving me nuts.

Lou and Jlove I will be thinking about you this week when you are having your US! Stick babies stick! Looking forward to some great news from both of you!

Fairy I hope you are having a fantastic time in Vanuatu!

Have a great week ladies!
BIG hugs TO YOU ALL!

Ah and my EDD is the 28th of August STICK BABY STICK! Can't wait to meet you in August

[Lou87]

Oh MaryLou! So sorry you had to go through such a thing, but SO relieved to hear that everything's ok! Spotting is a horrible, horrible thing, and it's so often unexplained. It can mean something, or it can mean nothing, which is what's so frustrating AND scary about it. Has it cleared up for you now? Hope so! Even with my 8+ weeks of spotting last time, my OB and my GP both said that it may not have had anything to do with the MC, it might just have been 'me' with that pregnancy. So when the spotting reared its head a couple of weeks ago I tried to tell myself the same thing, but oh, it doesn't work. It just fills you with dread and I'm so sorry you had to experience that yourself yesterday. I'm still checking for it each and every time I'm in the bathroom - no doubt many of us are, but HOORAY for happy news! How nice that you were measuring exactly 6w+5d too

Lovely Loulla thank you for organising a list! I think my EDD is the 26th of August, but it depends which site I punch dates into, as I get anywhere from the 24th to the 28th! But I'll stick with the 26th for now as it's my mum's bday Hopefully I'll get a better confirmation of the date (along with a happy little heartbeat!) on Friday afternoon. Either way, it should be about a month after you - exciting!

Dizzy-anne I loved reading about you feeling your little girl kicking! Oh, I can't wait for that - I almost wonder if I won't feel it's all real + ok until that point?! What week did you first feel it? How funny that she keeps hiding from your DH - that'd be right! But yes! Hopefully he can calm her just as easily when she's born

Mojo no need to apologise about the 'me' post - it's stuff we all need to talk about! I can understand why you're wishing this week away - I am too right now! A 12 week scan sounds amazing though. I'm sure all your MS is just making its exit right on time, and the cramping is just your bubba making some room! I've had a fair bit of that this week too, but it's felt very different from the cramping I experienced last time, though it's no less unpleasant! Hope it's let you be for now! I mentioned your ripping your shirt up to get your DP to check if your boobs still look pregnant to my DH and he's told me I should adopt the same technique, repeatedly. Oh, and what breed are your 2 large goofy furbabies? We've got one one large goofy german shepherd

JLove - YES! If only we could make these weeks go faster. Faster and faster and faster. I'd at least like to skip from week 8-12 anyway. OH, and I'm with you on the bloating too - more so over the past few days. It's ridiculous how much my belly sticks out because of it, and I'm totally self-conscious about it, and it makes my jeans very uncomfortable. I wish I had a solution for you but I haven't found one yet! And at least if your boss knows now you don't have to worry about hiding it at all. I'm lucky since my boss is overseas until I'll be 12 weeks anyway, and I haven't had any comments about my munching on dry toast in meetings yet, but since they're all men they probably won't pick up on that anyway

Pincushion - (I like the name!) Welcome!! Hooray for another compulsive mood grabber and spotting checker! I'm so sorry to hear about your previous loss - it's just not fair - but I'm glad you've found your way here How exciting that your 12wk scan went well, as well as your monthly checkup with your OB. I can't wait to see/hear a little heartbeat! Looking forward to getting to know you too - and I like what you say about our little miracles continuing to grow - the perfect thought!

Lala - how's the nausea treating you now? It's a great thing to be assured, of course, but it would be lovely if we could find that assurance through a more pleasant symptom! I do, however, adore your mention of absent-minded, anti-social boob-grabbing in shopping centres! FUNNY.

And a big hello to Fairey again! I hope you're doing extremely well and you just haven't been about because you are far too busy enjoying your amazing holiday!

AFM: It's gone past 40 degrees here, and we don't have aircon (I don't know WHY we always put off having it installed!) so I think I'd be feeling pretty rotten even if I wasn't pregnant! In all honesty my nausea is usually only mild-ish, though it is pretty constant. Every now and then I think I AM actually going to be sick, but it's always a false alarm, but I feel like I might actually feel better if I could get there just once! But I'm pretty much just cruising along the same - queasy, sore boobs (but I'm feeling MIGHTY ripped off that they don't seem to be any bigger! ) and frequent smaller meals. I'm in two minds about my first scan in 4 days... Half the time I'm excited and can't WAIT to see a heartbeat, and the other half of the time I'm feeling almost too nervous to go because I dread hearing bad news, even though I've had no symptoms to suggest such a thing. All normal I guess though. Fingers crossed I have nothing to be feeling so negative about!!

I just want to finally be excited about this pregnancy. Last time DH and I would happily chat away of a night about all the possibilities, and now we've almost got an un-spoken rule that we just can't go there yet. It made my feel totally naive last time that I thought everything would just be ok, and now this time I almost talk myself out of the same sentiment, even though I've only been through a single MC. I wish it wasn't too much to ask to have that first-pregnancy naive happiness back though!

[mojo11]

Hi Ladies !!

Loulla - I am due on the 1 August !! Thanks for the list it looks great !!

Jlove - Hope everything goes well tomorrow at your apt.. My boobs dont hurt as much either but as you I am still hungry and tired..

MaryLou - Oh hun what a day you had yesterday, I am so so soo glad everything was okay !!!

Lou87 - LOL re your DP !!! I have a bull arab and a staffy they are my beautiful kids !!! I am hoping so to.. This time round has been so different to last time.. Come one friday I say !!! I hear you on the none boob growing, mine went from a small A to a larger A, I feel so ripped off lol I nderstand completely how you feel about the scan.. I could not even look at the screen or the lady doing it until she started talking and telling me it was okay.. I think I will be the same for the 12 week one.. Your scan is the same day as mine.. I will be thinking about you !! DP and I are exactly the same as your DH and you are in regards to talking about it.. We where so excited last time and would sit and talk about it everynight..

AFM - Just counting down the days till friday, not much else to tell

[Fairey]

I'm Ba - ack!!

Hello my lovely pregnant ladies!!

DH and I got back last night (pulled into our driveway at about 8pm). We didn't turn our phones on once after we got to the airport to fly out, so I've been sittting here for a lil while reading all your posts.
Big to you all aswell!!

Vanuatu was beautiful. We did a whole lot of not a lot - I peed a lot and drank a lot of softies (while hubby had beers) and then I peed some more from drinking the softies. Vicious (sp?) cycle really!!
Glad to be home though - even if I do have about 3 loads of washing to do that I'm putting off.

Okay - big welcome to all the new members. And another big thankyou to Freckles for this group.
Loulla - brilliant idea of ours, if I might say so myself!! xxx

My story (only fair to share). I was terrified of something going wrong throughout my entire first pregnancy. Well - all of it while it lasted. Had some cramping and sore nipples which all stopped at the end of week seven, start of week 8. I had my first scan at 11 weeks (for the NT test) which showed that my little blob had given up the good fight. My D&C was two days later.

This pregnancy is already quite different. My nipples are still majorly sore and they look absolutely demented. I'm still having some flicks of heartburn and my new friend nausea introduced herself almost daily while we were in Vanuatu. Luckily though, it didn't last all day, just came on for about an hour or two. The idea of food is really off putting too - but I'll eat food happily, so long as I just don't have to think about what I want to eat.
I'm 7 weeks 4 days today and things (read: nipples) are still sore, so I'm assuming things are cooking nicely in there.
Before we flew out, however, I had some really sharp cramps that were lasting for a few days. So I went to hospital to be checked out. At 6 weeks 1 day my hcg was 27,000 and then I had both an abdominal and internal u/s. Bubs couldn't be seen yet, but the sac measured 6 weeks and the yolk sac was clearly visible too. So - given I'm still feeling symptoms, I'm quite confident that Wonder Baby is growing still. The very lovely doctor at the hospital (who really wanted to see things that were obviously weren't there yet!! During the ab u/ s she thought she could see a head and a heartbeat... the internal showed the 'head' was the yolk sac and the heartbeat was nothing.... bless her... damn her!!) anyways, the very lovely doc said to get another scan in about 2 weeks. Which would be this week. Not sure what to do - I'm booked in for Thursday next week. Not sure if I should see if I can get it done sooner. Hrmmm.... thoughts??

I'm so happy that everyone has had good news so far. So good to read!

I too have that cosmo pregnancy mag - and that week by week count of the ditzy pregnancy? She calls the baby Pixie.... wtf?! Poor bubs. (If anyone here is considering the name Pixie for a girl.... it's... ummm... cute?!)

Public vs Private... I live in a rural town so will definitely be going public. All private would mean here is that I would definitely get a private room, rather than just might get one depending on what's happening that day. So not worth the extra cost for me. Besides that - I actually don't care about who delivers my baby. So long as I get a baby at the end of it all.

Which brings me to birthing plans. Mine is quite specific - have a baby. Don't care who delivers it, how it is delivered etc, so long as I'm holding a screaming baby at the end of the day. I've had a D&C - might just be me, but that's made things so different for me. I no longer care about the petty logistics. I care about the baby.

Loulla - I was up to page 3 thinking that we need a list. You are a clever duck reading my mind like that!

By dates I'm due Aug 23rd.

Loved reading about the randome boob grabbing. I grab at my nipples occassionally - just to make sure they hurt. And by god does it work (yowee!!). And because I'm a bit sadistic - I've been wearing the lace bras that are hella itchy... so they add a little irritation to the sore nips - to oomph it all up a bit!!

[Lou87]

Woo Fairey! So happy to have you back. I do love your posts

Ah, bless your nice US doctor lady... But yes, damn her too on saying she could see a head and a heartbeat. Next time though!! I'll admit I made my first US for 8 weeks in the hope that we might see something ever-so-slightly baby-shaped rather than just a blob, but then of course I regret the waiting-around part of it. I think you should make your scan earlier - because waiting is crap! Make it for Friday and Mojo and I will keep you company

And I'm with you on the birthing plans. In fact, the idea of having a specific plan kind of boggles my mind. I just want our healthy (screaming!!) baby. How he/she gets here is not the point. Oh, SPEAKING of he/she - despite being all "I want it to be a surprise" before I ever got a BFP, if there was a separate stick I could have peed on at the same time as I did for the HPT - one that would tell you if you were having a boy or girl - I'd have done it. I already want to know! How's everyone else on that one?? Dizzy-anne did you want to find out from the start?

And yep Fairey, it's more the nipples with me too. But oh how I wish I could actually fill out a lacey bra, haha!! I keep thinking they're not hurting anymore, then I'll accidentally brush them with the towel after a shower or something, and they're all "Yes, we're still here, and we still EFFING HURT!"

Oh, dear... I seem to have gotten to the point where my nipples are talking to me....

[plaschic]

Hi to everyone, I'm new to EB and was tempted to join late last year but didn't. After my m/c on Oct 30 I was thinking how glad I was that I didn't join as it would have been a painful reminder of what could have been. I'm 6 wks pregnant now and feel so scared, I'm in my 40's so all sorts of possibilities run through my head. Last week I had one very small amount of spotting and I ended up in bed for the day just feeling so broken I didn't know what to do with myself. I have sore breasts and they are definitely a cup size bigger but all this happened last time and my m/c was at 7 wks so I am really feeling very uncertain. I am having an u/s next week but I have this overwhelming urge to take another pregnancy test even though I know this won't give me any indication of what's going on. It's the most horrible feeling, I want to be happy that we fell pregnant straight away but I'm terrified to even let myself think we might have a baby in case of another m/c as I really don't know how I would cope. I haven't had any blood tests yet as my GP wants to wait for the u/s result before doing any tests, I can understand this and my husband and I both accepted we may have some challenges given my age but wow is it hard to handle when you know time is not on your side.
It is nice to read your stories and not feel so alone, here's hoping that we will all leave this forum group after the next 9 months

[lalalollipop]

Hi everyone! Been a bit quiet for a few days as my home internet's been patchy (I log on, it drops out) but I'm back at work today after 4 weeks holiday (oh, it hurts!) so am sneakily logging on here

Welcome mojo, pincushion and plaschic! Plaschic, I hope things go well in your scan next week and you're here with us til all our little babies are safely born.

MaryLou - oh honey, what a horrible stressful day for you and DH. I was nearly in tears reading your post, I'm so glad it had a happy conclusion. Yay for that nice strong heartbeat!

Welcome back Fairey, congratulations and commiserations on your holiday nausea! I'm feeling pretty green these days, and it's reassuring but gross... though the second it disappears I'll be in a panic I'm sure!

Lou and Jlove - thinking of you for your upcoming scans x

And I hear you, Lou - I'm sure we all do - on just wanting to be able to be excited and not terrified, but given all our experiences it's a bit tough. I kinda envy women who get to naively go through their pregnancy without any thought that something bad might happen and without constantly checking for spotting - but I figure that'll just make us even better mums because we've been through more to get our babies, who will be squirming away in our arms around August this year!

I used to be the same on the waiting to find out if it's a boy or girl debate - but DH and I figured why not find out, there's no reason really for us. I want to get to know this baby as early as possible (once that precious second trimester rolls around safely)!

So now for me it's a wait til 3 Feb for the 12 week NT scan, I have no idea how I'll make it that far without reassurance, but hoping that the symptoms keep up and spotting stays away so that there's no need to be worried. If my nausea and boobs are anything to go by it must be ok (I was a C cup before, and I got measured yesterday for a maternity bra in DD!) I'm thinking I may have some balance issues down the track if they get any bigger, given I'm only 5'2!

And while we're bragging about our beautiful animal babies, I'm proud mum to a 4 year old kelpie cattledog with the sweetest personality of any dog I've ever met

Have a great day girls, and STICK BABIES STICK!
xx

This post has been edited by lalalollipop: 09/01/2012, 02:46 PM

[Jlove14]

Marylou- Oh mygoodness your post nearly brought me to tears! What a terrible day but with the best ending..you got to see your babieslittle heart beating! I am so happy foryou.

Will tell you the story of how I told my boss. It was a Monday and my close friends (who also happened to work with me) baby had passed away from SIDS at 4 months theFriday before and I was terribly emotional and sad. I went to the bathroom and when I wiped I sawa bit of blood. I came out and went tomy office and completely freaked- I called my DH and he said to call the ob soI called him and left a message. I thenhad to wait…in that time I could feel myself getting really hot and then my headstarting spinning and I knew I was about to faint so I walked out of my officeand called my boss’ PA to come and sit with me in my office. Anyway I eventually ended up on the floor ofmy office and then my boss walked in. I blurtedeverything out to him because he also knew of my previous m/c and he asked me ifI was pregnant. He managed to calm medown and then sent me straight home in a cab. I spoke to my doctor later that day and he gave me a few options, Ichose to wait for my scan. It was aterrible day and a terrible wait till my scan. But it ended well!

Lou- I have stopped wearing jeans! I just don’t feel comfortable having the pressure around my bub, eventhough it probably wont harm anything. Its so weird the things we do to make our babies stick! Wow 40 degrees and no a/c, I would becomplaining much more than you right now! And yes I too was so terribly nervous about my first US and felt exactlylike you- I will be crossing everything for you on Friday. I know what you mean about not being excitedabout the pregnancy- I believe that a woman who has had a m/c can never have amentally normal pregnancy- does that make sense?! At least not until later on in the pregnancy

Fairey- Hithere! Good to meet you. Can I ask why you were scared of somethinggoing wrong in your first pregnancy? Usually women in their first pregnancies are oblivious to anything goingwrong? Re the thoughts on when to getthe u/s- I think it depends on how you feel, if you can wait then greatotherwise just go for it. It sounds likeyou are travelling along really well symptoms wise so maybe you can hold outtill next thurs? I haven’t even thoughtabout my birthing plan! But I agree withyou- as long as I have a baby at the end I don’t care

Lala- so jealousof your boob size! I was a B and I’mstill a B but its tight now..haha! Hopethe days speed by to 3 February

AFM I have my obappointment and hopefully another scan tomorrow and I’m nervous as hell. Even more so as it’s the same ob and it willbe the same u/s machine that detected my m/c last time. I feel like my pg symptoms have gone down soI’m worried. It was my first day back atwork today and it wasn’t as bad as I thought, hopefully stays that way!

Good luck to Mojo and lou for Friday and welcome plaschich!

This post has been edited by Jlove14: 09/01/2012, 07:04 PM

[Loulla]

List update!



Pincushion -


Plaschic -


Marylou - 28th August


Lou87 - 26th August


Fairey - 23rd August


Jlove - 21st August


Lala - 16th August


Mojo - 1st August


Loulla - 25th July


Dizzy-Anne - 16th April