[3plusme]

I'm not sure if this is the right place to put this and I almost feel silly writing it but I need to know if I am dreaming it up or if there is something behind how I feel.

I have a certain love, a pull, a magnetic attraction to living in the UK and scotland. I love the people, the places, the history, the weather, the people. Everything about it. I want to be there.
Here's some background. I have english born parents and come from a stuffy english family, my husband is scottish and his parents were born in scotland. We all live in Australia and are all happy here and no one is ever going back. My husband and I were born in Australia.

But for me, I travelled there as a teenager at 18 with a friend ( I was deperate to go then!) and felt while I was there that a higher being was with me, watching over me, guiding me.

I can't stand australian weather. It is far too hot for me. I absolutely loved england. I am facinated with all of its history and how people in england lived through time. My husband has business roots here and there is no way we could ever leave Australia. He does not know how I feel. So why does it plaque my thoughts ALL the time to live in england. I don't feel Australian.

It's silly because it is like I am not really living here a full life here. I am waiting for something I can't have... it's so silly.

Why do I have this pull to a place I can never be is what I am asking.. was I there in a past life.. what is it??? I don't think I am romantising. It is more than that.

Please don't shoot me down in a blazing row of EB flames.. I just want some real answers to a genuine query.

[Madnesscraves]

I don't know OP, but I'm much the same as you. I don't feel like I belong in Australia. I feel very much like I should be living in the UK. I would have moved there, except I met my husband. While I love him to bits and don't regret the decision, I still can't help feel I should be overseas.

[Waratah]

Having lived in the UK three times over ten years I can say the grass is always greener on the other side. My suggestion living somewhere is very different than holidaying if you loved the feeling you got being on holidays that is what you are craving.

[Zeppelina]

I don't have any answers for you, but I used to feel very much the same way about my parents' homeland. I didn't feel Australian, despite being born and growing up here, and when I travelled there as a child and as a teenager, it felt like "home".

My experience was that when I went there with my 'real life' (rather than on a holiday) and considered actually moving there, I realised that my perceptions were based on an idealised version of it - based on the experiences of my youth, of freedom and fun. My experiences there as an adult made me realise that home is actually here!

I'm not saying that this is the case for you, just that it was the case for me!

[3plusme]

Thanks for the so far replies.
I wanted to add. that the holiday I went on there when I was 18 was not great. So I don't think I am having holiday flashbacks. It was a contiki tour whirlwind of mass drinking (was horrible) and two weeks after staying with relatives. That's the bit I loved.
I know there is a real difference between a holiday and daily life. Which I have thought about.

[doctorseuss]

My brother always thought that about Dad's home country so went to live there for a year. He had a great time but chose to return to Australia. Grass greener & harsh realities of living in a foreign country.

[BearBait]

The UK is great, especially if you live in a village. Hard part is setting yourself up again with friends, work, schools etc. English pubs are the best.
Are you seriously considering moving there or could you take a sabbatical for say 1 year?

[Pooks*potters]

Interesting, OP. My DP has UK heritage and went to London to see a concert, and instantly felt at "home". He hasn't felt that way on other travels. I do believe in a spiritual connection to land, it seems cross-culturally to exist and is certainly real emotionally. So perhaps you have inherited that from your ancestors. I would look at it as being a beautiful connection that you have. Definitely visit, it will reenergise you. I have friends who travel to homelands, and to their country in Australia, who feel a spiritual connection and find the encounters rejuvenating, even if they are not destined to live there.