[Lyn86]

It's funny thinking back to this time last year. My new house had just been completed, and my husband, mum, dad and myself had spent 4long hot days painting it. My sweet girl was just under one month old.
I got a long message from my cousin on our drive home, but as we kept dropping in and out of service I didn't reply and thought I'd leave it til I was home. Of course the baby played up, I was exhausted and never did. I unfortunately never had the chance.
My cousin decided that the thought of a new year with his depression was to much and sadly took his life. The next 4 days were he'll as we waited in limbo land until we were told there was nothing they could do. How has it been a year?
Still so many unanswered questions and so many legal issues to sort (unfortunately). Hoping this new year brings some closure for us all.
Some positives have resulted from this tragedy- bringing my close extended family closer, taking value in every day, a greater understanding of mental health, a fantastic lifeline lunch which we raised over $15,000 for lifeline and the constant reminder to love my baby girl unconditionally and tell her everyday.
Please stay safe this New Years and if you are concerned about yourself or someone else please talk to some one or call lifeline/beyond blue. You are not alone x

[R2B2]

Couldn't read and not reply.

Big hugs to you and your family.

great reminder to go and give the kids an extra big hug and say I love you.

[Sunnycat]

I'm so sorry for your loss. so sad. Well done on your efforts to raise money.

This year has flown by so quickly. It is quite scary.

I wish you all the best in the new year

[Therese]

I'm sorry for your loss. Thanks for the reminder to tell those we love that we do love them.

[suziej]

Like - to the post.

I am so sorry about your loss, but thankful that your family has gained mutual strength and support in the aftermath - and congratulations on the awesome fundraising.

[jayskette]

One year ago, 2 of DH's best friends (one of them a mutual friend) were still alive. One year on DH is still grieving for their loss and is plunging into deep dark depression himself.

Commiserations to us.

[*melrose*]

thinking of you op.

[Lees75]

Sorry for your loss, Lyn86:(

Similar story in our family- it is 2 years today since my aunty took her life. This time of year is so bitter-sweet for my mum and her other sister.
My Thoughts are with your family.

This post has been edited by Lees75: 01/01/2013, 12:07 AM

[Bek+3]

Thinking of you OP and everyone who lost anyone in 2012.

[songshirah]

It's so hard to talk about. I'm wondering whether in a year whether it'll be me posting something like this as my dear partner struggles with PTSD coupled with severe depression and anxiety. Every day I wonder whether today will just be too much for her as she sinks further into herself and believes that we'll all just be better off without her. She's been an inpatient, and is on a cocktail of medication, is under the care of a good psych and sees a psychologist. But of course, they're on leave until the 10th of Jan or so.

I just feel so helpless. I just want my beautiful partner back with the sparkle in her eyes. And then I worry she'll never come back. I worry I'll say the wrong thing at the wrong time, so I end up saying little at all.

Is there anywhere or anyone that can help me? I feel so selfish even asking as it's her that's going through hell.

Ah, I don't even know what I'm asking really.

OP, I'm sorry you lost your cousin. And to all the PP'ers who've lost those near and dear - I'm sorry for your losses too. Depression sucks. It's not fair and it's a thief for taking those who never deserved to feel the way they did when they took their lives.