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10 years ago i didnt think i would be having my new DD, i thought my baby days were over, I dont remember a day like today when a tear ran down my cheek. You new DD were my lovely chance to do it all over again.
Today was my new DD's last breastfeed, which means it was my last breastfeed ever. DD has had some feeding issues, allergies,intolerance weight loss, poor weight gain, hospital stays and NG tubes, through it all i have managed to mostly breastfeed. I had to cave and do some formula top up's, express my milk and help them send it down a small little tube down her nose but we did it. Now paeds has said enoughs enough and moved her to a prescription elemental formula.
As i sat there waiting in the hospital pharmacies waiting room and you started to cry i saw my chance. I picked you up and cuddled you close and had one last feed. Its not the place i would of chosen to do it but I'm glad i had that one more time. Bye bye to sleepy feeds snuggled in bed where you would just snuffle around and re-attach we will miss you.
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