Hi Shelley, I can understand what you are going through. I had 2 miscarriages and then was told when I was 8 weeks pregnant with my daughter that we had miscarried again. Thankfully, they had that wrong though. When I was told that I'd had my third, I was also very angry and couldn't understand why this was happening to me. My husband couldn't breath and I would be getting up him. I was crying constantly and I felt that nobody understood what I was going through. I then sat down and really thought about it all and decided that 'I will be a good mother, and this is not going to beat me, I will fall pregnant again and I will not stop until I get the baby that I deserve'. This is just how I dealt with it.
Have you been to see your Dr to see if they can do some tests as to why this is happening. I had lots of blood tests and went to see a specialist gyno.
Just reading back over my post, I know I'm rambling a bit, but please know you are not alone. You can PM me if you want any extra support. And I'm really good at talking about husbands as well, you love them to death but sometimes you just don't 'like' them or want them near.