I've been stunned at how hard it is to get into daycare, starting to follow up the waiting lists from a year ago and we are STILL on lists...all of a sudden a light has appeared at the end of the tunnel and we've been offered daycare at a lovely centre, handy to my transport to work and FH to collect her....but the crunch is I need to start her now two days a week...when I return to work full time in two months (they've guaranteed a full time spot for me then).
It's always been our plan for me to return to work full time, I earn a good salary, my job is a trainer also so despite my employer telling me I can opt for p/t I don't know that it would work...I couldn't see myself delivering half a course, no one does it like that at work, we dont have anyone to jobshare with, so I find that a bit odd to try and consider. And I know that heaps of kids go to daycare full time and come out ok...her big sister does already....but every family has to make their own choices and for us it has always been about me going back f/t.
I guess there's the voices that are all asking if I'm going to work p/t...what is that about? Just contributing I guess to the guilt that I'm feeling, seems to be something we all get handed as we leave hospital with our bubs. We don't have any family support either, I will be able to work from home one day a week upon my return if I'm not in a course.
But also knowing now that I have to start her care now, which does make me sad but for all my own selfish reasons...if I think of her, getting her used to the centre now, before the time for separation anxiety kicks in, still giving me time to find another option if she hates this....she is truly the easiest going bub, and I do worry the whole " but she's only known me" constant...being b/f too I think we'll have to supplement while she's in care....it does feel like I have to make all these decisions all of a sudden.
So has anyone put their bubs in a centre at this time...how did you transition them? A few hours rather than a full day? Did you have fears of yourself at the gate yearning to see how yr bub is...I know I'm being ridiculous, it's that whole thing I've never had to leave her with anyone but FH...has anyone got tips for me?
I feel like I'm lucky to have even secured a spot, and so convenient to us both going to work, I shouldn't look this gift horse in the mouth kind of thing. fH tells me to pull my head in, that she needs the socialization...so it's hard to say to him, help me here...