[Cherish]

When I was a kid, I rushed things. Always in a hurry to move
Onto the next project. I wouldnt do things properly, just get them done iykwim.
As a teenager I worked 2 jobs from ages 14-17 (no issues with sticking to it.
As an adult i struggle to follow thru. Jobs,uni, other commitments. It's like when it all seems too much I have no staying power to see it thru. Instead I throw my arms up and moan its all too hard, and I crumble into a heap.
I am an ideas person. I ofton have very
Good ideas, but never follow thru or finish them.
I struggle with time management and organisation. I love the idea
Of routines but there is like this little rebel on my shoulder thats
Rebels against them!
It's something that I really dislike about myself.

I was diagnosed with depression in 2008, and more recently have had discussions with my GP about getting a diagnoses for ADD.
I was lightly medicated for depression from 2007- november 2011. currently unmedicated.
Does anyone else struggle with this?

[~Flick~]

OMG all you wrote sooo resonates with me. It's anxiety!

Editing as I just wanted to reply ASAP. Everything you have written is exactly how my life is. Uncanny.

This post has been edited by ~Flick~: 21/06/2012, 07:04 PM

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OMG all you wrote sooo resonates with me. It's anxiety!

Me too!!!!

I was finally diagnosed with depression a couple of years ago. Funny that Flick mentions anxiety as this is a huge issue for me, I've never put two and two together before though.

You've got me thinking now.

I think I also have slight perfectionist tendencies. If I can't do it perfectly I won't bother trying as it's just too hard Therefore my life is a right old mess....

[Cherish]

Glad to know Im not alone! I was pretty worries about posting TBH! I try to be wary about posting personal informatiin on here, but damn its a struggle to live like this!

[Peridot]

Yep, Anxiety. I have this

I often find myself laying awake at night with a million ideas rushing through my head to the point where I get a headache!

I also have trouble with getting people to do something for me. Umm how to explain.. For example, our upcoming wedding is Feb next year, and I have seriously contemplated making the cake myself as I know in my head how I want it, and I don't want to be disappointed. I am also making my own tablecloths and runners and chair covers, just because I know how I want them..

I also need to be in control of the money, as I feel that DH can't possibly do as good a job as myself..

So many things I need to fix about myself if I want to end up where I want to in life!!!

(I even have to pick out our children's clothes each morning that I want them to wear.. If DH does it, I change them..)

Eurgh..

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I think I also have slight perfectionist tendencies. If I can't do it perfectly I won't bother trying as it's just too hard Therefore my life is a right old mess....
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Anxiety for me too. I just worry and plan and procrastinate and worry etc - I thought this was the way everyone operated before I started seeing a psychologist a few years ago after being diagnosed with depression (major crash and burn and off work for months). I didn't realise that not everyone had the constant analysis and agonising going on in their heads. My psychologist explained that often it's not until we're well into adulthood that we ever really 'fail' at anything - we've always just managed to get it done by working a bit harder or longer.

Have you read - 'When perfect isn't good enough' or 'Depression: The curse of the strong' - I found both helpful.

I have to work really hard to do some things 'adequately', rather than 'perfectly'.

[cheekymonkeysmum]

Yes i to could have written that.

I was diagnosed with depression in November '10' now looking back i know that i have had it much longer i to was medicated but weaned off them as they were no longer helping.

I get stressed out so much these days i have started so many tafe course's and anxiety made me feel like i couldn't do it so i threw it all in.

I to have no origination skills though when ds was a baby i had a great routine now his a toddler that went out the window.

I have so many dreams and i over think things to much that i makes me sick (headaches migraines etc) then in the end i feel guilty for not allowing myself to follow them.

So you are definitely not alone if you ever need to vent or chat you can inbox me any time .

[Cherish]

Peridot
- i dont struggle with any of the things you mentioned.
But I am like a walking tornado, complete chaos!
I can be talking, forget what Im saying mid sentence!
Im like that dog on the movie 'UP' when he sees a squirrel!

[Cherish]

Im not at all worried about perfect, but I'd like to be at least functioning! I consider myself to be an intelligent articulate generous caring person, but I couldnt organise a root in a bloody brothel!

[Peridot]

Do this test and see what you get.. It's interesting

I got 84..

Anxiety Disorder Test