Just had our 20 week ultrasound and found out that our baby who was perfect at 12 weeks stopped growing at 13. Thats 7 weeks of carrying around a pile if dead flesh with absolutely no idea anything was wrong. Why is my body so stupid that it doesnt realise? This is my second mmc that we were blissfully unaware of.
This pregnancy turned our lives upside down for a while. We were due to move to China in October but those plans had to be seriously tweaked. I was terrified of the concept of moving overseas with three small kids, but excited by the challenge as well. There have been so many hoops to get through and hard decisions. All of those were useless.
There are so many people to untell. I stupidly told new people just yesterday.
I am terrified of surgery and dont want to gp through the process of dealing with the hospital again. Last time it was such a debarcle.
I have not even begun to process the fact that I have lost another baby. Just the practicalities are too much.
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