Get ready for an onslaught...
I can't believe how bad things can be sometimes.
DP and I run our own retail store and have done so since Jan. We have just been broken into for the 4th time this year. Everytime we get broken into, its costs us more and more money to improve security on the premises and replace the stock (yes we have insurance but that takes about 4-6 weeks to come through). Everytime we have to exhaust all of our profits (the little that we do make) on this new security and we get further and further behind in our bills.
I feel like today has just been the last straw. We are down to our last $2K on the credit card and have a couple of thousand in savings, but just after we worked out how we would cover all the bills for September, then this comes along. The glazier and security film people are not on the preferred list for the insurance co. so we have to pay the glazier and then wait for reimbursement! Why is everything so damn difficult?
I just want to enjoy my pregnancy and I feel like I am being pushed from pillar to post. The last three times this happened I didn't sleep or eat properly. I have only just started sleeping well after the last break in in June. I know this will happen again now.
It all just seems so tough right now I am contemplating just saying to DP to just throw it all in and shut the shop. Sometimes I think it would be easier on welfare. Defeatist I know, but today I am just fed up to the back teeth. What have we done to deserve all this? We are just honest people to try to make an honest living and someone seems to think they have more right to our items than we do!
To top this all off Flinders MC has asked me to attend a sleep apnea(sp?) session at the Repat as I am having trouble breathing while sleeping and they are concerned for the baby. They failed to tell me I needed to find $75 for it and that DP couldn't come. I just can't handle this right now.
Thanks for listening.
Love and Sunshine to all of us for tommorrow,
Bubby due 28/11/04