New thread time. BFP's all round please

I'm on CD17 today, so officially in the 2WW.

Cass
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This message was edited by casszog on Tuesday, 17 May 2005 @ 6:43 PM

Alex’smum (Tina) TTC #2. Mum to Alexander Hugh Roy stillborn 37.3 weeks 28.4.04.

Annette-Maree (Annette) TTC #2. Mum to Cameron George stillborn at 40.3 weeks 3.5.04.

Hedley TTC #2 Mum to Evan stillborn 27 weeks 16.4.04.

wch1 (Jo) TTC #3 Mum to Abbey Rose stillborn at 39 weeks on 30.08.02 and DD2 Meg born 22.09.03

Mums the word. TTC #6 Mum to Jamie Leigh stillborn 28.9.04

Roz35 (Roz) TTC #4. Mum to Jacob 4, Ethan 2 and Grace stillborn 32.3 weeks 26.2.04

casszog (Cass) TTC #3. Mum to Samuel 05.11.04 (32 weeks) and Gabrielle stillborn 21 weeks 24.04.04

nenes (Janene) TTC #3. Mum to Alisha and Robyn born and died at 23 weeks 7.6.03

Thomas mum. TTC #2. Mum to Thomas born at 29 weeks 14.12.03 died at 12 hours 15.12.03

MummyNass. Waiting to TTC #2. Mum to Angel David Nassar stillborn 23 weeks 6.9.04

[color=Purple][font=Tahoma] “We’re pregnant!”

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Lilly's Mum (Kim) PG #2 EDD 24.6.05 Mum to Lilly Maree Lesley stillborn at 41.5 weeks 6.5.04

KerrieM (Kerrie) PG #3 EDD 21.7.05 Mum to Benjamin Anthony born 17/8/02 and Corinne Maree born at 23.2 weeks 04.07.04 Angel baby

Toucan (Sam). PG #4 EDD 25.7.05 Mum to DS 4yrs, DD 1yr and Tarnia Annalyn stillborn 39 weeks 25.9.01. M/C 10/04.

Vinkir (Kirsti). PG #2 EDD 29.7.05 Mum to Paige Shannon Lucia stillborn 38.5 weeks 14.7.04

Sharuth (Sharon) PG #3 EDD 10.05 Mum to Amey 18.07.03 and Jack Riley stillborn 20.3 weeks 9.7.04

RuthM (Ruth) PG #2 EDD 12.05 Mum to Asha Aimee stillborn 29 weeks 18.5.04



[font=Tahoma][b] Debsbabes (Deb) Mum to Caitlyn (arrived 18.1.05) and Sophia Ann stillborn at 20.3 weeks 6.11.03. Jayden 4 yrs and Olivia 2 yrs.

SandyR (Sandy) Mum to Laci (arrived 4.2.05 at 31.5 weeks) and Piper Rea born at 26.3 weeks 7.1.04 died at 28.4 weeks 22.1.04

Mamadom. Mum to Achille (arrived 11.05.05) and Antonia Annie-Jackson stillborn at 38.5 weeks 10.01.04

Laurensmommy (Lori) Mum to Christen (arrived 13.5.05) and Aaron 20.4.99 and Lauren stillborn 38 weeks 13.4.04



I have done my best on the list after my absence. Apologies for any errors. Please PM me any changes or additions ladies.


This message was edited by SandyR on Tuesday, 17 May 2005 @ 1:17 PM

That was quick Sandy! I wasn't expecting to see another post there when I came back to the thread, lol. Hope Miss Laci is doing well. Loved that photo you posted the other day. What a gorgeous little girl.

Well I hope my madness lately and extreme hormones and moods are meaning my pregnancy will make it this time. So far my symptoms are extreme moods, tingly boobs, slight nausea, and one other that I cant remember, and a very faint positive yesterday a week early from af. Yes I know I am a serial tester, I just had to know, it was faint but blue and its still there now. So this specialist better help me keep this baby alive!!! Im happy of course and kinda excited but not confident due to all these losses. The only good thing is my moods being so extreme and me getting such an early positive might mean really strong preg hormones and hopefully a real sticky baby. Only time will tell.

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mums the word - I really hope that this one sticks for you.

Sharon

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mums the word - I really hope that this one sticks for you.

Sharon

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Mums the word- I hope this one stick with you!
I am 7 dpo and geting very itchy to test! I have 50 tests at home from ebay.

Not holding out much hope. I have an apointment wiht my OBGYN today. Hope he does something.!

Tina 27
Dh 33
TTC # 1 since 99
Laproscopy 2000
BFP! August 2003
DS 28/04/04 Stillborn @ 37 weeks
TTC # 2 Since 5/04
6 Rounds of CLomid - All failed
Laproscopy the next step

Thanks, I hope this thread is soon full of BFP's and sticky uneventful pregnancies, I really like it when the girls who are now pregnant come in and offer us some encouragement. Just makes you realise it can happen. Well here I am pregnant again. I should be so ecstatic and am really but not confident at all as you all understand too well. I just keep on falling pregnant but its the long term I am worried about. I am going to hound this specialist to do something like treat me with clexane to ensure a healthy placenta, sure that may mean daily injections but who cares, Im not a big fan of needles but they dont terrify me either. I just wish I could be more confident.

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mums the word - god girl, you're eggys/spermy must love each other - fingers crossed for you this month, let us know how you're doing.
out of interest - do you use an OPK to track when you're ovulating, and how often are you and DH bding a month?

Well i don't think i'm in the mix this month - dh has had the sh*&ts with work and was in a mood last night and this morning so we haven't bded - i think i ovulated yesterday or today and it's not looking good. he just told me over the phone that he's sick of doing it every month and it's taken the fun out of it. don't know what to do with him.





Hedley
Mummy to Evan, born an angel
27 weeks, April 16, 2004
ttc since July 2004

Hedley no I dont use opk's I didnt temp this month either so it was going by my cervix mucus and O pains only . I love how you said our eggys/spermies must love each other, thats so sweet how you put it. I think we usually get one or two or three(see where this is going,lol) beddings in as soon as af finishes then we will either just bed each night if we are up to it, or when ever but I make sure we bed each night while I have cm around. I like the herbs Im taking I am hoping I have a terrific endometrium this month as I only spotted once and it felt right how it happened too. Like when I was approaching my fertile time my cervix may have been opening so a little brown mucus blood came out. TMI sorry. But in a wipe or two it was gone, none later on my undies etc, I used to spot on and off after my af and feel maybe my endometrium wasnt thick enough as a result. My hormones are so sick so far and my breasts so sore so I still find myself hoping despite the odds. I am still taking the Maca until af is due and then I will stop. Its supposed to help with the progesterone and lutenising hormone so can only be good. I find the gross taste isnt too bad if I mix it dry with milo and add milk and have it that way. Not bad with ice cream too. Otherwise its like vomit, yuk. I dont know if I will keep taking my herbs yet. I just will ask sue at fertilemindandbody soon. I just will be the happiest woman on earth if I am still pregnant in 8 more months. Isnt it sad we dont have the blind fearlessness we used to have.

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hi Guys

I went to my OBGYN today and I am booked in a Laproscopy, die test and D &C on the 25th of May. DH is having a sperm test done in the next few days. I am hoping that i dont need it and this will be the month but Im wishful thinking there.


Tina 27
Dh 33
TTC # 1 since 99
Laproscopy 2000
BFP! August 2003
DS 28/04/04 Stillborn @ 37 weeks
TTC # 2 Since 5/04
6 Rounds of CLomid - All failed
Laproscopy the next step

Wow Tina, what an overhaul! I hope your pregnant this month too. Mind you I think its positive at least your doctors are taking you serious. I have been told by my specialist that all I can do is wait until I get a viable pregnancy and when he asked my age and I told him 37(just turned) HE LAUGHED!!! Excuse me, I see nothing funny do you. (Is what I should have said but am a slow thinker on my feet). I asked about aspirin, progesterone, further tests etc, he said not needed, not proven to help etc, then I told him of the girls here on the internet I have read of success with it and he again, LAUGHED/SCOFFED. So if thats his attitude he can forget about me seeing him EVER!!! He said when I get to 6 weeks to go and see him once I know the baby is in the right spot.
I Dont Think So.... I am in the country but surely there are other doctors...

Anyway that had me cutting up aspirin and nearly taking it as he said it is thought to help with implantation but I tossed them down the sink, I dont want to interfere now in case they are right and its all a matter of waiting for a healthy pregnancy, maybe I am losing these babies because my body or the baby recognises something is wrong and so its not viable, I am 37 after all. Maybe when I get a sticky baby I can feel reassured it will be a healthy one??? So for now I can only wait and see.

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Oh mums the word - that guy was a total knob. i can't stand 'professionals' like that. If this is any help, my best friend suffered a few misscarriages and doc was at a loss. She went to naturopath who was saying that the egg was bedding itself into the wall but there wasn't enough nourishment for it to survive. She put her on some drops and she fell preggers, went full term the next month.
I don't think docs have answers to most things you know.

Tina fingers crossed for you - that's what i had in January - doc said 'cleaning out the pipes' often does the trick, not that it has for me.

We've only bd'ed twice this month, not enough to get me pg i don't think, so i'm not holding my breath. That sux. I'm over it really - have any of you guys thought about IVF? Is it a big decision to make. Doc mentioned in Jan - do you think i'm being too hasty about it.

Hedley

Hi everyone

Its very quite in here.

hedley - I am with you on iVF a fw months ago I didnt want to but now I want to do it. When we move I am going to go to a fertility specialist and start the wheels in motion. Probally another 3 months I think..

Not a lot happening for me. I am 9 dpo and no symptoms so its not looking good. I am getting vrey sad with Alex's birthday getting closer and closer.

Mumsthe word - hope you are going well.


Tina 27
Dh 33
TTC # 1 since 99
Laproscopy 2000
BFP! August 2003
DS 28/04/04 Stillborn @ 37 weeks
TTC # 2 Since 5/04
6 Rounds of CLomid - All failed
I O'ed by myself!
Lap,D&C, dye test - 25th May

Tina, yes i'm seriously been thinking about IVF last day or so - i originally thought that i'd be admitting to being a failure if i did it, but now i think its probably a good idea. I think the stress we're going through each much is having a real effect on our ability to conceive - and honestly i just want it over and done with and to be pregnant.
Once i get AF this month, i think i'll make an appt with my OB who can recommend me to a specialist. Does it matter that i haven't been ttc for 12months yet?





Hedley
Mummy to Evan, born an angel
27 weeks, April 16, 2004
ttc since July 2004

Hedley - I went to the Dr about 6months ttc this bubs and they werent going to do anything to much. The next step was clomid after DH's swimmers were checked. But they were a bit hesitant in foinf the next step. Even though I said it took 2yrs to get pg with Amey.
If you had problems the first time ttc it will go in your favour. Also if you let them know about the stress you have been going through. Hopefully they will be very supportive for you. I felt a bit pushed around in a way but then thats probably just the way I was feeling at the time.

Sharon
DH - Scott
DD - Amey
DS Jack Riley 09/07/04 stillborn
#3 EDD 26th Oct 05

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Hi Ladies

Well I had my scan yesterday and everything was really good, she moving around heaps so much so that they had trouble getting some of her measurements because she was moving so much. I went for my OB appt straight afterwards and she tried to find the heartbeat but she couldn't pick it up because she was moving so much Charlize actually kicked so hard it pushed the doppler off my belly, so my OB said I give up there is definately a healthy baby in there.

The photo we got of her face was so clear and so much like her older sister, actually she is spitting image of Lilly.

I am scheduled to have another scan at 37 weeks which my OB said I don't really need but to have it if it will make me feel better, so of course I will be going to it.



I hope that you are all keeping well.

Take Care

Kim

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Hi Guys


Kim - Bubba looks so cute! Glad things are going well!


Plase guys, im going crazy, my chart is looking so good compared to clomid months.
What do you think?

http://www2.fertilityfriend.com/home/tinab

A nice slow rise!

Tina 27
Dh 33
TTC # 1 since 99
Laproscopy 2000
BFP! August 2003
DS 28/04/04 Stillborn @ 37 weeks
TTC # 2 Since 5/04
6 Rounds of CLomid - All failed
I O'ed by myself!
Lap,D&C, dye test - 25th May

where is everyone???

Am i going to talk to myself?????????????

Feeling pretty bummed, I think its anothe BFN on the way now.

Tina 27
Dh 33
TTC # 1 since 99
Laproscopy 2000
BFP! August 2003
DS 28/04/04 Stillborn @ 37 weeks
TTC # 2 Since 5/04
6 Rounds of CLomid - All failed
I O'ed by myself!
Lap,D&C, dye test - 25th May

Oh my goodness Tina, I dont want to get your hopes up but to me that looks damn good. I have a girl just pregnant in our buddy group whos looks like yours. Upward and upward. I will be so overjoyed if this ones your baby cycle Tina!!! I am getting so excited here you would think its my own,lol. I have been checking up on you each day but you must have put in a temp this morning after I looked. Oh Oh Oh this is getting sooooo exciting!!!!! This is your non clomid cycle too isnt it.

If you tested and that got you down if neg its probably too early yet so dont worry okay.

Sticky baby edd 3rd Jan 2006

Tina - gosh it is looking good, what makes you think its a BFN?
Mums the word, love your new ticker.
Kim - what a fantastic scan pic - you're right EXACTLY like Lilly. Isn't that amazing.

Well i'm headed off to a hens night tonight, i want to go like a hole in the head. DH is outta town and i wanted to stay in and watch Sex in the City DVDs - oh well, you gotta do it.

Tina, keep in touch, want to know what's going on.

Hedley

Hedley
Mummy to Evan, born an angel
27 weeks, April 16, 2004
ttc since July 2004

Cass - a happy heavenly birthday to Gabrielle today.
My thoughts are with you.

hedley

Hi Guys


Happy Birthday Gabrielle. Ill get Alex you give you a big kiss. Thinking of you Cass.


Temp went up for me today but I tested with ebay cheapie and negative. See hwat next week bring.

Have a good long weekend everyone

Tina 27
Dh 33
TTC # 1 since 99
Laproscopy 2000
BFP! August 2003
DS 28/04/04 Stillborn @ 37 weeks
TTC # 2 Since 5/04
6 Rounds of CLomid - All failed
I O'ed by myself!
Lap,D&C, dye test - 25th May

Hi just popped in to say to Tina, gosh your temps are looking mighty fine girl - keep it up.
Fingers crossed for you this month.

Hedley

Hedley
Mummy to Evan, born an angel
27 weeks, April 16, 2004
ttc since July 2004

I hope your tests were duds too Tina. I find this early sometimes you get a positive and then test again and get a neg just to get a pos again so dont worry yet, remember af isnt due yet and that some pregnancies dont show a positive at 4 weeks anyway. My temp was up this morning and so I am hoping this little one will make it. Af due tomorrow but she better stay away from my baby.

Sticky baby edd 3rd Jan 2006

Hi guys

Thanks for that. My temp went up again today. Af is due tomorrow, if I have a 14 LP. As this is my first cycle off the clomid Im not sure how long my LP wil lbe. ON the clomid it was 16 days, by myself it was 12. I am going on a 14 lp. I am using ebay tests and I have heard that these arent very good so I wil buy another one soon and test again. I think I will get AF, so not getting my hopes up.
Any bet it will arrive on Alexs birtdhay on thrusday and make my day even worse.


Tina 27
Dh 33
TTC # 1 since 99
Laproscopy 2000
BFP! August 2003
DS 28/04/04 Stillborn @ 37 weeks
TTC # 2 Since 5/04
6 Rounds of CLomid - All failed
I O'ed by myself!
Lap,D&C, dye test - 25th May

Thanks for the birthday wishes girls. The lead up to the day was much worse than the day itself. We ended up taking Sam to the zoo and have a lovely day. The most teary I got was when I wrote on her birthday card. I couldn't think of what to say, so all I wrote was 'We miss you'.

I'm on CD 25 today, but don't like my chances. I have no pg symptoms so am expecting AF on Friday.

Tina - I so hoped your temps are showing you are pg. I'm rather dense when it comes to temps, but I hope Alex blesses you with another bubba to love for his birthday.

Hedley - how was the hens night?

Katrina - I hope AF stays away. She's not welcome!

Back to work with me

Cass
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My period is due today, she will come, my pregnancy test today was negative so I have been an awful mess emotionally crying all morning. Why cant I hold my babies anymore? I rang so many people in the medical profession this morning trying to get answers and feel like no real help there.
The doctor who was so rude last time said this time (I was in tears over the phone) if my period comes (which it will) to come and see him he is thinking of putting me on estrogen tablets to encourage a big progesterone spike and thicken the lining of the uterus. ITs scary to me once they start mucking around with your hormones. I worry about them making matters worse. I dont know what to do. Maybe just keep trying and see what comes? It took 15months to conceive dd 2 yrs old. So maybe it will take a long time too. I just value life so deeply with each lost little baby that I wonder if Im doing the right thing continuing to try and wonder if I should give up.. I dont think I can.

Tina I so dearly hope your pregnant this month.
All of you girls I am thinking of you all.

Oh mums the word - that's terrible news. What the hell is going on. i have no idea what you must be going through every month - i hope someone can help you with this. Is AF gluggy or horrible each month?

Tina, Fingers crossed for you babe - try not to think about it.

Cass - i'm glad you had a nice day - yes hens night was good. wedding is this weekend - will be glad once its over.

For me AF is probably due on monday. I have a really different attitude this month. We only BD'ed twice so i haven't got my hopes up. Plus have decided that if nothing happens at the end of next cycle, will go back to OB for some "official" help.



Hedley
Mummy to Evan, born an angel
27 weeks, April 16, 2004
ttc since July 2004

Af hasnt arrived yet. I hope this means it stays away and baby is fighting to survive.

Hedley my af is heavy for 3-4 days but then its ending around day 6 this last cycle.

I hope your all successful this month.

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mums the word - if af hasn't arrived you're still in with a very good shot.
Fingers crossed for you hon.

I must say my temps are looking might nice this month again. Mind you, i'm now not taking too much on board as last month they looked good as well.



Hedley
Mummy to Evan, born an angel
27 weeks, April 16, 2004
ttc since July 2004

Af arrived this morning, sad.

I made an appt for the ob and he wants to give me oestrogen to build up my lining for implanting and then it should also give me a high spike in progesterone after it he said. He is likely right, I used to get af for 7 days when younger, I will find out this month wont I as Im sure to fall pregnant again. I hope this is what the problem is and we have it fixed. Meanwhile my heart just aches with sadness for all those tiny lives lost perhaps due to my stupid hormones. I guess it may come with age. I am 37 though another ob (the one who did my tubal reversal) reassured me that Im not too old. He is so sweet. I am going to not take my herbs anymore, just preg vitamins which have folic acid too in them and no more aspirin either. Just a lovely thick lining for this babe coming to implant and stick around.

This has me wondering, about Jamies death and what could have caused this, I wonder if my lining is too thin then maybe that explains why in some places his placenta was as thin as 4mm? My poor little boy may have been a victim of a thin lining too and if I get to keep my next baby due to a thick lining I should be grateful not to have fallen and just to lose another one as I did Jamie. I love my little guy so much, how I long for him as you all understand all too well. The pain is so intense isnt it. I am feeling a bit confident about this treatment, I hope I dont fall if it doesnt work. Hedley I think its important to hope for your temps to be preg ones. Its only healthy to and if we fall down thats also healthy, youd be worried if you didnt feel as you do. Lets hope we get some happy news soon. So sorry for all the nasty af girls and lets all hope madly our darling Tina finally gets to tell us we can congratulate her next. My heart just yearns for all of you girls to hold your little ones sooo much. I feel like crying so better go. Keep trying ALL of you okay. Im so happy for all the girls who keep popping in still that their sweet little babes are going so fantastically, so dont worry our sweet girls still here All of us, we will be them too, they give us encouragement to hope.

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Hi Guys

I am sooo depressed today. Had a huge Temp drop today which means Af is on her way today. I am so sick of BFN.
Alex also died a year ago today. I didnt know yet but found out late thatnight. I am soooo depressed. WHy cant things be simple for us? We all deserve it and its nto happening for us. I am soo sick of it

Mumsthe word - I am so sorry . I hope that they fix up whatever is wrong this month.

Hedley - I knwo what you mean by a good chart. my chart was so good this month. FF even said my chart was triphasic.



Tina 27
Dh 33
TTC # 1 since 99
Laproscopy 2000
BFP! August 2003
DS 28/04/04 Stillborn @ 37 weeks
TTC # 2 Since 5/04
6 Rounds of CLomid - All failed
I O'ed by myself!
Lap,D&C, dye test - 25th May

My heart goes out to you mums the word.
Iam 38 ttc after loss. please hang in there, you have given me soooo much courage to keep trying.
PS Iam new
ME 38
DH39
Baby cheeks 14/12/03 29w

Tina & mums the word - i'm soooo sorry both of you.
Tina, i thought Alex's birthday was tomorrow, i'm sorry i didn't mention anything earlier.
I know there's nothing i can say to either of you and i'll probably be in the same boat at the end of the week.
mums the word - the medication etc sounds promising and its great that your taking steps to rectify whatever could be the problem.

I'm actually getting quite over the rollercoaster every month personally - i don't know what i can do to stop it for all of us.

Thomas, welcome, hope your stay is short

Hedley
Mummy to Evan, born an angel
27 weeks, April 16, 2004
ttc since July 2004

Alex'smum today is a very sad day for you the worst pain, your little angels b-day. I hope you have people around you today to give you lots of comfort. Do you have anything planned. My DH and I spent the day away it felt strange, life is very difficult sometimes.I am thinking you take care of your sad hearts.
Our angels will party today.
Thomas mum

Tina: Oh sweety am so sorry. Wish I was there to give you a big hug in person. Are you doing anyting special for Alex's birthday?

Mums the word: sorry this has happened to you again, hang in there.

Thomas mum: Welcome, would you like to be on our TTC list? If so please have a look on page one of this section and send me a personal message with your details, no pressure, happy to have you here.. When you are ready we would love to hear about Thomas.

And me, well I had to fly out to have D & C after having Laci because was still bleeding after 11 weeks! So I had the operation last friday, hoping I will soon be back to normal..

My sister and hubby and 2 neices and my grandmother are all flying up on Saturday to stay for 2 weeks, very much looking forward to it, though house will be very full

Take care everyone.

Thanks headley
I hope my time is short however I am starting to feel like maybe my baby dust is off course. I try to be positive and get on with life, but all I think about is either Thomas, or getting pregnant. Second time around is taking forever, feel like I getting to old.

Thomas' mum so nice to meet you and so sorry it in such a sad tragic area where we all seem to find comfort in each other. So deeply sorry for your little Thomas. I just dont even know where to start to give you some comfort, sometimes there just isnt any words that will help is there, the only thing that will help is having your baby back one day in Gods time. Im finding ttc keeps my mind from getting too deep into depression I feel. All this eb feels like therapy. There are so many sadly, that have walked in your shoes and its just so awful yet that doesnt come even close to describing our pain does it... I will try to be there for you if you want to cry yell scream vent anything, feel free to do so here or pm me. I feel so depressed today, I hope this month is my final successful month of trying, I keep thinking of all those poor little babes of mine and I just feel like doing nothing. I havent touched my housework today. Just have no energy. I really enjoyed my dd who is 2 and walked down the street with her and just enjoyed her. I hope those who dont have any children yet fall pregnant before me. You deserve it more than me. I have my children here and you need one to hold and love and bring home and just cherish and adore.

Tina, I am so sad for you today. I am so sorry. Thinking of your darling little boy. hugs and more hugs to you.
What is with these fantastic preg charts? Are they just trying to drive us all crazy or what!

Hedley, heres hoping your af never comes for 8 more months.

Sandy how sweet is that little daughter of yours, waving at the camera. How sweet.

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HI gus


Sorry for the confusion Hedley, yes his birthday is tomorrow but he died today. (he was born the day after he died).

We are doing something tomorrow. As we have Alex's ashed at home we ar going to the teddy shop and maing a teddy bear and puting Alex's ashes inside it. Then i can cuddle alex When I miss him.

I have to go I wil be back alter on



Tina 27
Dh 33
TTC # 1 since 99
Laproscopy 2000
BFP! August 2003
DS 28/04/04 Stillborn @ 37 weeks
TTC # 2 Since 5/04
6 Rounds of CLomid - All failed
I O'ed by myself!
Lap,D&C, dye test - 25th May

Alexmum, what a beautiful thing to do by making a teddy bear. Wish I thought of that. We were given a beautiful video of Thomas which I have found a great comfort, cause some days this whole expirence feels so very serle. Especially when AF arrives.
Teddy hugs

Tina thats such a nice idea. Do you mind pming me or posting here where you get that done and if you can get one made and sent via mail? Im not sure if I want to do that but its an idea. I cuddle my Jamies urn with a teddy on it holding balloons blowing bubbles. I think its worth a thought for down the track. My dh wants to one day spread his ashes but I dont want to. I like having his remains close to me and will just feel the loss even more if I dont have hime near to me. I got so upset when the nurse rolled him out in his bassinet I felt like saying no bring him back but knew it had to happen eventually so I feel like he was brought back to me in a way by him still being near to me. I hate this pain so much, all I want is my son back again. When God makes all things right in the world again he will be with me again but the waiting kills me.

I just want this next cycle to bring us a sticky pregnancy. I had to defend my pregnancies as real in my post under my new pregnancy in the pregnancy section, a girl nicely upset me by suggesting Im doing my test wrong because I said I went back to my neg test and thought I saw some blue so she thinks I do this with all my tests so I had to reassure her that I did the tests before this one in the allocated time and got a bfp in the time and sometimes even before the allocated time it showed positive. I dont need this now, Im not an idiot and know the difference after years on eb.

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Happy heavenly birthday dear sweet Alex. I'm sure Gabrielle will return the favour and will be giving you a big birthday kiss at your angel party

Thinking of you today Tina xox

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Happy heavenly birthday to Alex!

Tina, hopefully AF hasn't arrived and all is well.

Hedley

Hedley
Mummy to Evan, born an angel
27 weeks, April 16, 2004
ttc since July 2004

mums the word,I hear what you are saying about what people say. My DH and I have had to listen to some very difficult comments about why our little man had to go to heaven, which hurt heaps. I miss him so bad it some days feel like this pain will never end. Most of my friends have disappeared, it has also affected my job. Is it normal to constantly wonder why? and will I ever bring home a baby that is alive? I feel so empty, sorry guys, just have so much empathy for you all and how you keep trying. I feel like I am still in shock, not sure it I need shaking or icecream.
Happy B-day Little Alex
Have any of you mummy's here lost a baby due to ruptured membranes and succuessfuly conceived and carried a 2nd preg?

Sorry I meant premuture rubture of membranes, I was only 20w, Thomas born at 29w emergencey c-section.

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No sorry Thomas' mum I didnt have that to my knowlege. I was wondering when my waters broke in labour it was bloody water, more like blood that came out, not like any water, was he lying in blood? I just dont think we will ever know the answers you know and to be perfectly honest I dont know any doctor who could care less enough to even look into the details for us. I feel so let down by doctors. I posted in this area on how my doctor treated me yesterday and had me so upset that I just simply will never go to him ever again. I will have to drive 100klm to have blood tests or doc visits I hate this man that much. I just wonder what he is doing anyway in a tiny town like this if he is any good anyway. Probably hiding from some malpractise he is so incompetent. He upsets me that much. We need loving supportive doctors. I just wonder if they should even be allowed to treat people who have experienced loss unless they have experienced it themselves. In bendigo I met a doctor who was so lovely and kind because his wife also lost a son at 18 weeks, he said his children and himself were there for the birth. Its so sad. But my point is he was so wonderful. This doctor here is such an uncaring pig anyone would think I never lost a baby and am just annoying him. I just detest him.

Hedley I am getting so excited about your chart, I almost cried this morning when I saw it. I hope it isnt one of those nasty ones that give plenty of preg signs but drop at the last minute. I am full of hope for you. I think you and Tina mustnt be far off now as you keep getting such fantastic charts. Your bodies seem to be working so marvelously temp wise so I am here living in hope.

So how are all you other mums going? Join in. I cant remember very far back so you need to keep up and join in as I want to reply to you too,lol.

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Hi Guys

Alex's birthday was a hard day but not as bad as what I though. Af arrived to so that made it wrse.

I want to say thank you to Hedley, Casszog, Toucan,Lillysmum, SandyR and Nenes for your part in my lovely Crysal. I love it so so much. I cried when I got it. Then i got a big bunch of flowers from everyone later that day too. It made me feel so special. we went and made the bear. we chose a bear, then they stuff its arms and legs. when then put Alex's ashes in then they stuffed the rest of its body. They sewed it up and then we put clothes on it. IT is so special I took him to bed last night and cuddled him.


This is the bear

This is the crystal.

thanks so much guys



Tina 27
Dh 33
TTC # 1 since 99
Laproscopy 2000
BFP! August 2003
DS 28/04/04 Stillborn @ 37 weeks
TTC # 2 Since 5/04
6 Rounds of CLomid - All failed
I O'ed by myself!
Lap,D&C, dye test - 25th May

That is so beautiful and touched me so much. Thats so lovely Tina. Im so sad but glad you were sent flowers too. They really make you feel nice dont they.
Love to you and your husband. Sorry af came, just to rub your nose in it, I hate af so much at the moment. I dont want her around all I want is another little baby to love.

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You're welcome Tina. I'm glad you liked the gifts. I knew you would be moved. Friends of mine did a similar thing for me on Gabrielle's birthday and I was so overwhelmed. Sorry that AF arrived

Cass
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