I wasn't sure where to put this so if it is in the wrong place please feel free to move it.

I am married with 4 children and have had my tubes tied so we won't be having anymore.

I feel a bit silly writing this but it's starting to get to me and i guess i would just like to know what it means.

I always have this overwhelming feeling that i am missing a child. When all 4 of my children are in the same room as me where i can see them i always get the feeling that there is one missing. I continually sit there and count and make sure that there are 4 in the room but there is always the feeling that there is one that isn't there and i am always looking around trying to find the other child. It happens more often than not and it only happens when we are all together.

I often hear mum being called out and when i answer all of my kids tell me it wasn't them.

I have also been having dreams about a 5th baby. It is always the same dream and in the dream i am always pregnant with a little girl. The reason i know it is always a 5th baby is that one of my good friends is in the dream and she always tells me that i am crazy for going for number 5 lol. I also know it's a little girl because i am always saying in the dream that my daughter is going to be happy to be having a sister. The dreams are so real that i wake up expecting to see a pregnant belly.

I don't know what it is but it has been happening for a couple of years now and it is starting to happen quite frequently.
I don't think it is my inner mind as i have always said that we are done and i am happy with our decision plus with having my tubes tied it is not going to happen.

So is there anyone out there that could give me any explanation as to what it may be.