Amy Scott was over 400kms away from her seven-year-old son when he was killed in a horror car crash in June last year.
The Perth mum-of-four recalls the moment 'her life changed' after being informed about Nate's death, four-and-a-half hours after the fatal incident.
"My dad came rushing out the door of the house," Amy tells Essential Kids. "He looked really upset and just said 'there's something I need to tell you."
"It was like you see in the movies. I just remember falling to my knees and screaming out 'Why why why?'. I couldn't stop screaming."
"I had a rainbow skirt on that day, and I remember ripping it off," the heartbroken mother adds. "I still can't wear it now. I used to wear bright colours all the time and dye my hair, but haven't been able to since my son died."
Although her partner and other three children were there too and visibly distraught at the news, Amy then recalls running into her car with her hands over her head, 'bawling'.
"At that moment, I couldn't deal with their pain on top of my own," Amy says. "And now every day I wake up, my first thought is always Nate. I have anxiety and my stomach is in knots. My life ended in a lot of ways."
Nate Stewart, seven, and his step-sister Harmonie Cunningham, 10, died after a horror collision between their car and a ute on a remote rural road in Georgina, about 25km south of Geraldton in Western Australia.
They were in the car with Nate's stepmother, who was driving, and his dad after a long weekend away.
Over a year later, Amy is still deep in shock and grief - and she feels her healing has been hindered given the distant location of the crash site.
"I have only been once to his cross," Amy reveals. "While obviously traumatic, the location is now a very sacred place for me. Being able to visit it was very healing. And I feel it's my job to maintain his cross but I'm unable to as it's so far away."
Amy is bravely speaking out about losing her son as part of Rural Road Safety Month - to encourage Aussies to be safe on the roads.
Alarming new research shows that two in every three deaths that occur on our roads, happen in rural areas. While it may sound like a regional problem, it's actually a concern for all Australians.
"I don't want anyone else to go through what I have," she explains. "I want people to know it can happen to them. This is reality."
"I'm not the same person anymore. It took me six months to even cook a meal for my other kids. I had to quit my job in youth suicide prevention, give up my social work studies and I can barely move with anxiety. I'm scared to go outside or get in a car and everything is triggering."
Despite all her pain, and the grief her other kids are going through, Amy is grateful she still has her physical life.
"At the end of day, it's Nate and Harmonie who are the victims here - they were only kids and didn't deserve to have their lives snatched away in an instant. It's incredibly unfair."
Tragically, its not the first time Amy has lost a family member to a car accident.
Her grandmother passed away in a crash in 1976 when the other driver was allegedly under the influence of alcohol.
Earlier this year, Amy's friend John was killed in an alleged hit-and-run.
It's easy to see why she is so passionate about road safety - and urging drivers to do their part to prevent tragedies.
"The bottom line is that most of these road crashes are preventable and there are things humans can do to make changes to heir own behaviour," she said.
"All it takes is a moment of looking down at your phone... and you can have a devastating impact on so many people."
She describes her late son as "the most beautiful boy and bundle of energy" with a big smile and two dimples.
"Nate was born three weeks early and from that moment, he just never stopped," Amy gushes.
"I will never stop speaking about him. I'm so proud of him. Nate's story has changed lives."